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you've left the airlock now. you close the door, and turn the lock, despite shouts and bangs from the other side. close your eyes. know now, the truth. this one doesn't belong. cries go unnoticed. a prolific, earth shaking bang. to stop time, for once. a cry for help. tell us, in that universal language of thought. standing before them, dozens and ( Read more... )

we will take change. we will make change. change is screaming at the top of its lungs. gather three the fates, spin the threads. all signs point to yes. the twelth planet. do you see the future, do you see the past? to be human is to want. i can feel it now, it's stronger then ever before. that which keeps you up at night. the misunderstood, the ( Read more... )

what is it you see, with lingering gaze? what is it that you seek? like an onion, layered, faceted. finding just the right road, which way to be. i take things apart. things fall apart. scanning the wreck for survivors, a ringing in your ears. things come up, things go down. do you stand tall? or do you linger in shadows? have you decided? every ( Read more... )

i did something i should not have done. staring a brick wall in the face, i feel sick to my stomach. i haven't eaten anything today. the phone's ringing off the hook. see the marvel that was uruk, ruined. i don't pick up the messages for days. sometimes i'm walking, and i feel acid buildup in my legs or something i get cramps all over, sometimes i' ( Read more... )

I told a cooworker today that my longest relationship was a month long. it was probably only 3 weeks, in retrospect. feeling ugly, poor, and despite decadent, expensive things surrounding me, i'm very much unfofilled. upon realizing this, that i've never had a real relationship, i realize quite simply that i probably never will. i'm the kind of ( Read more... )

John Samson ( Read more... )

i made my peace with it, with the damn girl. the truth is i loved her heart and soul. she just didn't feel the same about me in the slightest. she'll never know the extent to which i put mental effort and thoughts directed towards her benefit. she'll never see neon genesis evangelion, or macross plus. and i will never watch freaks and geeks. if i ( Read more... )

somewhere there is a ghoul, rising. tactless successors ignite long dead pyres. we were having a staring contest, you and i; there was no clear victor. invisible worlds collide with more pressing concerns. you told me you were vising your grandmother that night. that was a lie. you then called me 5 months later, a worse call i cannot imagine nor ( Read more... )