THAT'S THE WAY IT OUGHT TO BE
i made my peace with it, with the damn girl. the truth is i loved her heart and soul. she just didn't feel the same about me in the slightest. she'll never know the extent to which i put mental effort and thoughts directed towards her benefit. she'll never see neon genesis evangelion, or macross plus. and i will never watch freaks and geeks. if i can help it. i'm over it, but there is still a sadness in me. it's the same hole that was always there, it's merely wider now. i look at myself in the mirror sometimes, and simply see dark, evil things in me. but i continue on, that i do.