It's been over 5 months, I've accepted what's happened. I even wish him well. I understand that this is what was best for both of us. I just have a certain amount of hostility towards him for his actions in dumping me. I don't want to see him and it's hard when all of our friends are the same....

for the most part I'm feeling so much better. I'm mad at him mostly but I suppose that's what I needed to start healing. It's funny how a small thing can really set you back though. Yesterday I made Scotch eggs for dinner, no reason it just popped into my head as the thing to do. Today my sister and Danny tell me how he went on facebook asking how ( Read more... )

I keep telling myself "why would you ever want to be with some one that doesn't want you" and it's helped, I just want to know why he all the suddenly didn't want me. In hind sight this was coming for a long time and I can accept it all, I'm just hurt by it. I miss my friend, I miss the stupid jokes and the hours of conversation.

My dog just had a nightmare, woke up barking and checked the door before she ran to me and slowly crawled onto my chest. Now she's flopped over passed out. This is my child

So stream of thought rants about what's bothering me right now. Sorry for the bitching ( Read more... )

Today started off really great. I slept in had breakfast then was hit up by a friend. So I went out do Davis to hang out. Eventually we met up with more friends. We were having a really good time catching up with people I hadn't hung out with in months then next thing I know Aaron was on the phone with one of them making plans to meet up as well. ( Read more... )

I was asked out and half tempted to say yes. Then suddenly I felt like I was cheating. This is all too much.

I've come to terms that the ex and I weren't meant to be together in a romantic fashion but I miss my friend. When is it ok to move on, when will it not hurt me to move on let alone hurt him?

Every time I feel like I'm starting to accept what's happened with some sort of grace something happens to set me back ( Read more... )

Mentioned to my best friend that I thought Aaron had moved on to a specific person. Of course instead of keeping it confidant, like I asked, she straight up asked him if he was. This dominoed into her asking me if I was telling every one that she was seeing him. In a way I feel like I was yet at the same time I told my best friend that I don't ( Read more... )

So I thought I was starting to cope then I found out that he's probably already moved on. I wish I didn't love him. Sorry for bitching so much :/