A whole vat of TMI sorry I needed to vent
Every time I feel like I'm starting to accept what's happened with some sort of grace something happens to set me back.
Last night I had a dream that I was trying to be friends with him, hanging out with him in his living room, and mutual friend was there talking about all everything they'd been doing. After a short time of this I was extreamly uncomfortable. The ex did ask the friend to stop and the friend seemed embarrassed that he made me uncomfortable. I can't help but picture it now and it hurts, I can see him sitting on the couch and the friend walking to the kitchen for some water when a girl walks from the ex's room. She seems to recognize me then takes off an over shirt and laughs and throws it at the exs head. She then sits on the arm of the couch and begins to play with his hair. At that point I couldn't take it and just up and left the house heading to my house as fast as I could. When I had started for the door I could hear the ex try to say something but that was it. By the time I hit my car I realized that I hadn't handled the situation in the most mature way. So I turned to walk back to say good bye. As I walked back the front door was open and the ex was on the couch with her on top of him.
This is when I woke up and that image just won't go away. Fuck my imagination. I want him to move on so I don't ever have to think of something between us ever again, yet at the same time I just don't know how I'll handle him snuggled up to another girl.
Yeah on the other hand at least my subconscious is trying to prepare me for what's to come.
Last night I had a dream that I was trying to be friends with him, hanging out with him in his living room, and mutual friend was there talking about all everything they'd been doing. After a short time of this I was extreamly uncomfortable. The ex did ask the friend to stop and the friend seemed embarrassed that he made me uncomfortable. I can't help but picture it now and it hurts, I can see him sitting on the couch and the friend walking to the kitchen for some water when a girl walks from the ex's room. She seems to recognize me then takes off an over shirt and laughs and throws it at the exs head. She then sits on the arm of the couch and begins to play with his hair. At that point I couldn't take it and just up and left the house heading to my house as fast as I could. When I had started for the door I could hear the ex try to say something but that was it. By the time I hit my car I realized that I hadn't handled the situation in the most mature way. So I turned to walk back to say good bye. As I walked back the front door was open and the ex was on the couch with her on top of him.
This is when I woke up and that image just won't go away. Fuck my imagination. I want him to move on so I don't ever have to think of something between us ever again, yet at the same time I just don't know how I'll handle him snuggled up to another girl.
Yeah on the other hand at least my subconscious is trying to prepare me for what's to come.