It's nearly 1:30am, Corey is feeding our cat and I am sitting in his pajamas, drinking another glass of iced tea. Corey rubbed coconut butter all over me and then rubbed my back because I feel incredibly sore lately. I just finished reading The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold, it was beautiful and painfully sad yet overpoweringly joyous. Tomorrow I ( Read more... )

I don't know where to start at all. Corey and I were so shocked last night that we both feel as if we are just walking through the day in a daze. Tomorrow morning we have some errands to sun to help clear our minds, I'm nervous. I feel as if I am being pulled into a thousand different directions. Veronica is a really close friend and she knows ( Read more... )

I have been thinking a lot about life and death. The world never fully stops, no matter what happens. It's so difficult to describe, I wish I had the words. I always had the words before it all came crashing down - just in a moment, everything changed. My world altered so dramatically. How can anyone have faith in anyone or anything? How can ( Read more... )

It's been some time since I last updated this so I thought I would take the opportunity to do so now. I am at home with Corey and his brother Ricky. Ricky and I are drinking and I feel a little guilty because I know this must be harder than anything to have us drinking here with him trying to recover from his alcoholism. Our relationship is so ( Read more... )

I have so much floating through my head right now. I don't know what to do, what to think or what to say. I don't know how to fix it or make it better. I need to get away - far away from here and find myself. How do I do that? Where do I go? Where is the solution to my life? Who is that person? Have I mnet him before? Did I screw it up and ( Read more... )

Only 364 days until my birthday ( Read more... )

Alright, so this morning at 10am I dropped Corey off at the county jail to serve his 48 hours for his DUII. He was feeling really apprehensive so I was playful all morning. Last night he was so adorable, he laid his head down on bed next to mine and said, "kiss me". Oh, I miss him. This morning he brought me coffee and woke me all up. So after ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday Veronica ( Read more... )

My life has been so hectic and busy this last week. I feell like I cannotg even manage to take a second to collect myself because I am continuously on the go. I got my promotion to activities director. It is a lot more fast paced and creative but so much more work. Coffee has become my new best friend. I swear, I drink pots a day. I am ( Read more... )

Booked my flight for my birthday. A total of $963.21 for airfare.