Thoughts racing through my mind
I have been thinking a lot about life and death. The world never fully stops, no matter what happens. It's so difficult to describe, I wish I had the words. I always had the words before it all came crashing down - just in a moment, everything changed. My world altered so dramatically. How can anyone have faith in anyone or anything? How can anyone ever feel stable and secure? Eventually everyone will die, so unpredictably and so unsettling. Emotionally you are a wreck. A disaster. I need to find me again. I knew who I was before death but having it wreck havoc in my life has completely shaken my world. I feel as if I was lost when you died. Like I was taken away. I nbeed to cry.