for the wishes, m'dear.

EDITED JUNE 25, 2010

This will be my last LJ entry.

I say this because I no longer feel comfortable sharing anything on here. I say this because I've been betrayed by a friend, someone who turned out to be more self-centric than anyone I have ever met in my entire life (including myself). I say this because I am honestly afraid of updating this, in fear of allowing a ( Read more... )

This was supposed to be a happy post.

'Cause aside from this one thing, I'm doing pretty good.

Aside from this one thing...

Don't make me disappear again, because this time, you'll never find me.

I know I haven't updated in a while, and I also realize my last few entries have been rather depressing.

However, things are on the up swing. So this entry, for once, will be about all the good things that have happened lately.

~ And we start with Medication.

Yes. I'm on meds now. A very low dose of generic Prozac. I couldn't stand waking up every ( Read more... )

Things have improved. I'll just keep it short and like that, and say that they have improved. My emotions are no longer on the psychotic rollercoaster headed straight down to Uncoolsville ( Read more... )

So yeah.

I'm kinda to that "I'm seriously fed up" point, and then a guy I was interested in finally informs me that he as a girlfriend. I kinda wanna punch him.

No. Not kinda. Do. If he wasn't in my mom's EMT class, I would punch him.

And some of you may have seen my AIM status message, and yeah. I feel pretty much like that. Sam's basically left me ( Read more... )

So I went back to delve through my old entries for god knows what reason. I am a damned mix bag, like, all the time. What I really noticed, however ( Read more... )

Somewhere between content, happy, optimistic...

...and depressed, lonely, worried, and distraught...

is where my emotion is at. I'm not quite sure of what to think of how I feel, some mixbag of things, but that's what I feel right now. I have things to look forward to, and things to look back on, and things to be concerned about.

Just a lot going on ( Read more... )

So my brand new laptop came in yesterday, and maan is it wonderful. I mean like, crazy wonderful. While I didn’t go for the top-of-the-line processor, she still has a pretty darn good processor, and a slightly better graphics card than your run-of-the-mill laptop. Also I paid a pretty penny, but hey, I needed a good laptop. Starshot says he’s going ( Read more... )

So I hate to get ahead of myself, but since I always do, I might as well have a happy version of getting ahead of myself. Not that I'm really thinking that far ahead, it's just...nice, y'know?

What is nice,  you ask? Well, I went to the EMS conference today at KDMC, the one that will give me 8 hours towards my 36 hours I need of continuing education ( Read more... )