Somewhere, I. - CHAPTER 3/5 (URUHA/RUKI) - PART 1
Title: Somewhere, I. - Chapter 3/5
Part: 1 of 2 - … you ...
Author: luna_no_koibito
Genre: Life, angst, romance, AU
Warnings: none I believe (for this chapter)
Rating: PG-13 (for now)
Pairing: Uruha/Ruki
Bands: the GazettE
Disclaimer: I don't own them, and don't wish I did because I'd be sorry for what could befall them （・＿・；）！
Summary: -No they won't, and I don't want to spend my life hiding, and lying to myself. I want things to change Uruha, and it will never, until somewhere, someone will make it change, and I decided to be that someone- sternly concluded the brunette, grabbing mop and bucket, speed walking to another section.
MAIN
2 PART 2
… you …
At the present moment, Uruha's world could have been a prefect world, an incredibly fair and wonderful place, where nothing could have possibly gone wrong, and where being Kouyou would have been the best thing to be, because being Kouyou meant having it all, a considerable amount of money, a caring family, and now, he had somehow managed to acquire his longed desired love, which still seemed all to good to be true. However, it was exactly that longed desired love that prevented the realization of his perfect world, because the world he lived in would have considered his world far from perfect, and unfortunately, the newly formed couple, weren't the only inhabitants of the ever condemning and prejudice planet they lived on.
Bittersweet. The only way he could describe his situation, which added to the dreaded math test he would have to take sometime that morning, didn't allow him too much sleep, as he abjectly turned his head towards his alarm clock, whose digital red line composed a bright 4:21. The emotional turmoil hadn't been the only thing that had him awake at such an insanely early hour, in fact the main likely reason of his abrupt abandon of his dream world, was the familiar aching sensation in between his legs, caused by the also rather familiar dream he hadn't seen in a while.
Sighing, he revolved his head towards his ceiling, resignedly closing his eyes wondering how could his distressed mind still find the time to happily bask in the gutter, as the now consciously working muscle scanned through his memories, and appositely selected that of the first time he'd had this type of dream, of him having sex with Ruki. It had happened approximately three years ago, which was when he seriously had to question his sexual orientation, given the frequency the same dream had surprised him in the middle of the night, always leaving him with a hard on as a courtesy gift. He had felt scared and ashamed not understanding possibly having such feelings towards the brunette, or rather refusing to understand, he was scared the other finding out, and the way he would have felt sickened by it, but most of all he feared himself, realizing he really craved to feel Ruki's sweaty and moaning body beneath his.
He wanted to slowly run his fingers through his black, and recently red locks, to gaze at half-lidded eyes, which, as his usual, would have been marked in black eyeliner, and would have almost entirely covered his ever unwavering artificial azure orbs, in which he had lost himself many a time, never wishing to be found, such as his hand, which unknowingly found himself in between his legs, inside his underwear, reaching in aid to his ever demanding member.
-Ruki ...- he whispered, as he imagined the way those plush lips would have gracefully fell lightly opened, groaning, panting, lusting for him, and him eagerly diving his wet muscle in-between them, claiming him over and over again, and stroke after stroke of his already painfully hardened member, with a rapidly increasing speed, the honey blond finally came in his hands, his eyes still closed, Ruki's naked body still engraved in his mind.
Uruha sighed once again, biting his lower lip, still feeling slightly embarrassed for his already habitual action of jerking-off to the image of the person, who was now his boyfriend, and swiftly getting off his bed, he clenched his white marked hand, and walked towards his bathroom deciding that to have been the last time of him releasing his sexual fantasy with the image of the brunette, justifying what had just happened as a sort of bachelor party, since now, he had the opportunity and right, to truly claim Ruki's so long desired body, hoping his now relaxed remember would have kept his calm around the brunette.
After having a rather cold shower, and spending sometime reviewing his math material, it was finally time for him to pick up his boyfriend. It still felt so weird to think of, or address the shorter in that way he thought, as he calmly walked down the familiar street that would have taken him to the familiar old apartment complex. He was some minutes early, but he didn't mind, in fact it would have gave him time to prepare himself in facing the shorter, for he didn't know exactly what the other was expecting, figuring that his usual good morning might have not been enough anymore, was he supposed to kiss him, or greet him in a seductive voice? He had no idea, and he hadn't been in a relationship in a while, thus his renowned player skills were definitely rusty.
However, he didn't have not even a second to spare, for as soon as he reached the main door of the complex, it suddenly opened ushering an awkwardly smiling Ruki, who nervously closed the door behind himself, still facing the taller.
-Good morning ...- quickly greeted the brunette, no complaints about the other being there to pick him up, no proud and hardened front, simply a slightly lowered gaze, with a touch of red on his white face, as he ever so often glanced at the honey blond
-Hey ...- was all that Uruha could utter, still a bit caught off guard by his sudden appearance, as he nervously scratched the back of his neck - … shall … we go?- he then swiftly inquired, as the shorter merely nodded. And hummed in agreement.
Once again, they proceeded their walk in silence, but this time it was an entirely different type of silence, as the honey blond desperately thought about what to say, possibly not lame, and hopefully kind of cool, he needed to impress him, because he was without any doubt, and he would have accepted no discussion in the matter, the man in the relationship. During his thought process, he continuously glanced down at the other, who as well was glancing down at him, more precisely, he was glancing down at his free hand. Obviously, the brunette wanted to hold hands, after all, it was a normal occurrence, that was what couples did, right?
But they weren't a normal couple, and Uruha was still rather subconscious of open displays of affection, no matter how much he wanted the hold his hand as well, somebody in the neighborhood could have recognized him, which was rather impossible given the time, but he didn't feel like taking such a risk, not yet.
-We should probably hurry up ...- he suddenly uttered, smiling as he glimpsed at the startled expression
of the brunette, who was gazing at him - … we don't know what they might have done this time, after yesterday's stunt- he concluded, lightly increasing his speed, as the other once again nodded and hummed in agreement, trying to keep up with the other's pace. He felt horrible in denying such a simple and rightful desire to the shorter, and the constant glimpse to his intently pensive features weren't helping his guilty feelings one bit, when before he knew it, they had reached the school's gates where Aoi was, as usual, waiting for them.
-There goes the couple of the year!- he exclaimed, rushing towards them and nonchalantly placing himself between the two, and embracing both their shoulder, as they walked towards the gate.
-Yeah, and I'd like you to keep it at that ...- plainly stated the honey blond, as he quickly removed the taller brunette's arm from around his shoulder, and pulled Ruki closer to himself, gaining a blush and an averting gratified smile from the shorter brunette.
-Oi! Ruki is still my friend as well you know ...- pointed out the brunette, calmly walking behind them, as Ruki looked for the keys in his pocket, while Uruha busied himself sending skeptical gazes at the lip-pierced brunette - … be careful Ruki, it seems you have quite the possessive boyfriend here, if he ever hurt you don't hesitate to tell me!- he declared in a feign reassuring tone, receiving a diverted chuckle from the other brunette, and the usual flip off from the blond.
-I don't min- was about to add Ruki, but suddenly stopping, as reached for the keyhole, the gate showed itself to be already opened - ...It's … open ...- slowly observed the younger, gaining the other two full attention. He then cautiously pushed the door open, and the trio walked through and towards the main entrance, which had been opened as well. Once they got into the institution, a rather different scene was right before them; the school looked practically as new, few men in a sort of working uniform wear gathering tools and buckets, and at the end of the main hall, the headmaster was bowing and thanking one of the workers.
-Well … - suddenly interjected Aoi, curiously looking around, nodding his head pleased with what he saw - … it looks like we have a little vacation today, uh? -
-And I woke up so early … - sighed the blonde, who had stopped observing his environment, and was now watching Ruki, whose seemingly worried gaze was fixed on their headmaster, who was conversing with the worker.
-There is still quite some time before school starts ... - he suddenly observed - … what to do? … - he then whispered
-You two will have to excuse me … - defensively stated the brunette, raising his united hands in front of his face in an apologetic sign, holding his cell phone between them - … I am going to Coru-chan, so see you later okay- he quickly explained and rushed out of the main entrance.
Uruha silently watched their friend practically run out, and as he thought about how to usefully spend his first quality time with the brunette, the shorter suddenly spoke.
-Would you come with me somewhere? … - hesitantly asked the brunette smiling up at him - … I've always wanted to go there, and now that we have nothing to do, and the school is empty … - he trailed off staring at his feet.
-Sure - swiftly replied the taller, gaining a pleased smile from the shorter, who swiftly checking his surroundings, began walking towards the school's main staircase.
They run all the way to the top of the school on the roof, which was the fifth floor, where students were not allowed, but always found someway to get into the prohibited place. However, in their case, Ruki possessed a copy of the keys to the school, and finding the one he needed, he successfully opened the door and allowed himself and the honey blond in, closing the door behind himself.
-You … wanted to come to the roof?- skeptically and almost distressingly chuckled Uruha, but the brunette, heedless of his remark, walked towards the roof's high wall, and tip-toed on it in order to place his folded arms over it, soon after followed by the honey blond
-Ne Uruha … - he then suddenly spoke in a light tone, as he intently gazed at the sky - … is it okay if I hold your hand here?- he calmly asked, swiftly glancing at the taller - please ...- he then swiftly added.
Uruha simply nodded, gently encircling his digits with the one of the shorter, not wanting to say anything fearing his voice might crack, for the tight almost hurting sensation surrounding his heart, at Ruki's almost pleading tone, he didn't want to hear him beg for such a thing, it wasn't supposed to be so, but the fact that he himself had blatantly ignored him previously, didn't make things any better, didn't make him any less guilty. Instinctively, he moved closer to the brunette, until their arms touched, tightening his grip around the other's finger's, who looked up at him smiling, and happily leaned his head on his shoulder, staring up at the sky.
-I've always wanted to come up here … with you - began the brunette - .. to be on a high top with you, looking at the sky - he precised stretching his hand to the sky - …this is probably the closest me and you will ever be to heaven, you know … - he explained - … couples like us are not welcome up there - he then cynically smirked - … I hear it is a nice place up there, it's a pity isn't it?- he then whispered, lowering his arm.
It was all spoke in a diverted tone, but Uruha could sense the truth and hurt behind the statements, the shorter was suffering, there was no doubt, and all that he had been doing, was trying to protect himself, protect his feelings, almost forgetting that the brunette was the one into the spotlight, the one who already had put so much on stake. Slowly abandoning his hand, he walked behind him and encircled his waist, as the brunette relaxingly sighed and leaned his head on his chest.
-It shouldn't matter though … - he then spoke - … wherever we go … as long as we are together … right?- he then hesitantly inquired, as well gazing up at the sky.
-Right - firmly replied the brunette, placing his arms on top of Uruha's, who unsuccessfully tried to hold back a yawn.
-Aaaw … - sighed the brunette in an amused tone - … my Uru-chan is tired- he then pouted looking up at the taller, who was squinting his eyes down at him.
-Uru-chan is not going to fly Ruki … - he informed the shorter with a smirk, tightening his embrace, gently placing his chin on top of his black and red locks.
-Why not!- wined the brunette - … it's so cute - he explain a chuckle
-Exactly- plainly stated the the taller - … me and cute don't mix- he swiftly added, as the brunette suddenly turned into their embrace, looking up at him with a pout.
-Please ...- pleaded the brunette
-No- blankly replied the taller, looking down at him with a diverted smile
-please~!- continued the younger, as the blond was about to reply another no, which the brunette readily stopped, tip-toeing up landing his lips on the other's - … please- he then asked once more, staring at the honey blond's dazed expression.
-...whatever ...- Uruha resignedly whispered, looking down at the smiley face of the younger, and leaning down to plant his own kiss, and as was about to withdraw, but was held still by the shorter's arm, which swiftly placing themselves around his neck, pulled him back to his lips. Uruha grinned into the other's mouth, and bringing him closer, he tentatively passed his tongue on Ruki's lips, who immediately granted him access, as they practically devoured each other; they had waited three years for that.
After their passionate and surprisingly long make-out session, the two spent the remainder of their time, reviewing math problems, sitting on a bench on that same roof, more precisely, Ruki read out the required formulas, and Uruha stated to be listening, while showering the brunette's neck with never-ending kisses, as the shorter constantly made sure that the other was really listening, and the honey blonde would keep humming in reassurance on his neck, leaving the brunette rather skeptical on the fact, but as it turned out, Uruha was able to confidently answer all questions on the test, and was the second to finish after the brunette.
-Fuck math, numbers, and everything that has to do with it … - wined Aoi hiding his head on the crook of Courtney's neck, who was considerately stoking his black locks, at their usual table in the cafeteria
-Honey … - began Courtney, who had been the third one to confidently finish the test - … you tried your best, and I am sure it didn't go that bad … - she tried to reassure the brunette.
-… will you stop the wining, dickhead- breathed out Uruha, sipping on a can of coke - … you already have an assured place in whatever university, thanks to your soccer scholarship … - pointed out the brunette - … you could find other excuse to land your face on Coru-chan's body … - he whispered, gaining an amused expression from Courtney, and a flip-off from Aoi, who still kept his face firm in its stance, as Ruki simply chuckled in his usual green tea cup.
-I feel bad for you … - suddenly spoke the familiar voice of someone, stopping by their table, looking at Aoi, who slowly moved his head to face the offender - … It must suck to only be able to turn balls on a field, and have absolutely no power behind the wheels in your brain -
-Yutaka? … - Aoi bemusedly inquired, as the quartet stupefyingly stared at the now, black short haired boy - … I was wondering when you were going to get rid of that red shit, that fits you better you know … makes you more … Japanese?- nonchalantly observed Aoi, grabbing a piece of egg from his bento - … oh and thanks for today … we really needed a break- swiftly added the brunette in pretense gratitude, as the newly brunette simply smirked.
-I thought it nice to leave you guys alone, given that this might be the last week for some of you … - he cynically pointed out glancing at Ruki, who as usual seemed to be untouched
-Last week? - suddenly inquired Uruha, now attentively observing the standing brunette.
-After our three day break vacation, when we get back to school, things will finally go back to what they used to be … - began Yutaka, calmly looking at Uruha - … the way they supposed to be - declared the brunette, in a rather serious tone, which, for the first time in four years of their infelicitous acquaintance, left the honey blond with a rather uneasy feeling, as their gazes locked together, and his orbs barely floated in the other's sea of determination.
-What … - began Courtney looking up at the standing youth - … you'll stop being an asshole, apologize to all those you offended?- she pointed out, and inquired with a skeptical expression, absently staring at her still full bento.
As if he hadn't heard the girl's comment, Yutaka merely remained silent and unmoving, still firmly staring at Uruha for a few more second, with the same serious gaze, then emitting a low sympathetic sigh, he slowly turned around, setting a step forward, and suddenly stopping.
-I … - he began in a firm tone, keeping his back to the group - … I will not stand still, and watch you cock and foreign cunt lovers ruin my country- he concluded, and walked off.
The party of four remind silent, as they silently observed the brunette leave the cafeteria. None uttered any slick remark, none shrugged away they unwanted visitor's threats as empty one. It was clear that something had drastically changed for the worse in the mind of the famed school trouble-maker, and whatever it was, it didn't sound or feel good at all.
-Wow … - suddenly uttered Courtney - … that was … - she then whispered slightly bending her head in wonder, glancing up at Ruki, and Uruha. The first seemingly assuming a deep pensive feature, the second apathetically staring into nowhere - but really … what is he going to do … kill us?- she then observed wanting to laugh it off, but failing half away as her smile suddenly turned upside down.
-Yeah … right ... - suddenly replied Aoi with a faint smile, tightly holding his girlfriend's hand, who was now staring at he bento - … we wouldn't go that far … - he then nervously pointed out - … whatever it is, we'll fight it and face it together, just like we have been until now, ne?- he concluded looking at both Uruha and Ruki, receiving an affirmative absent hum from Courtney, and a simple nod from Ruki with a forced smile.
-I guess, why not … - shrugged away the honey blond, nonchalantly gazing elsewhere, trying his best to hide the real depth of his concern, from the shorter brunette, who was glancing at him every now and then.
- … Okay~!- chanted Courtney - happy thoughts people, happy thoughts … - she suggested, wrapping her arm into the one of the taller brunette -No matter what, we still have our three days vacation right? We should have fun, shouldn't we?- she then observed looking at Aoi, who nodded.
-Speaking of which … - began the lip-ringed brunette- me and Courtney thought that the four of us should go and spend them at my beach-house, what do you guys say?- he proposed looking at the excited face on Ruki's face, and Uruha's skeptically contemplative one - … two couples, and the beach, sounds perfect doesn't it? …- swiftly added Aoi, looking at Ruki, who seemed more and more convinced - Plus ... I am tired of having grumpy Uruha around. Clearly enough, he hadn't have some in a while … and the beach has always been the perfect place to happily get laid - grinned the brunette gazing a glaring and hissing Uruha, who harshly kicked and missed Aoi's leg under the table, the brunette replying with a mischievous grin.
-To slow fucker ...- chuckled the taller brunette, looking at Uruha's still irate features.
-Yup yup … - agreed Courtney giggling at Uruha's furious glare - … and we know it would be your first time Ruki-kun but please, yoroshiku onegai shimasu~, we are counting on you! - chanted the brown haired, winking at a deeply reddened, and eye-widened Ruki.
-Well said, well said - agreed the taller brunette, circling his girlfriend's waist, and quickly kissing her
-... You two must have not wasted time, and got into business as soon as you met uh? ...- observed the blonde in a whisper, sipping on his coke
-Meaning? ...- challengingly asked Courtney, scanning the blonde with a siminlgy offended gaze -
-First night? ...- plainly inquired Uruha, staring at both
-Third!- Aoi and Courtney indignantly exclaimed at the same time, glaring at the honey blond, who simply rolled his eyes.
-... s-so are we going? - swiftly and hesitantly inquired Ruki, wanting to stop the upcoming fight, quickly glancing at the Uruha, still fighting with his flushed features.
-Do you want to go? ...- calmly questioned Uruha looking down at the still reddened brunette - we don't have too .. if you don't want to - swiftly added the honey blond, obviously referring to their going to Aoi's beach house, but feeling the subtle referrer to having sex heavily lingering in the air.
Aoi and Uruha had been renowned in the school for their playboy lives, and sex was a vivid part of it, the two strongly held on to the pole-position until the previous year, from which they quickly fell off, Aoi with the arrival of Courtney, and Uruha, well, he was simply trying to figure himself out. Thus, for the two of them it had been quite a normal occurrence to be sharing stories about their sexual encounters, which according to Aoi was always so very gay. However, it was well known among the four of them, the fact that Ruki was a virgin, and Uruha really had no idea about how the other felt about the lustful business, since the other always seemed to avoid the discussion whenever it arose, and even though the three of them had so often sat down and watched porn, Uruha figured that the shorter he simply did the other two frequently horny mammals a favor.
-We should go … - calmly replied the brunette, still avoiding the taller's gaze -... we do need a break … it's a good idea … I think - he then concluded, glancing up at Courtney, who was still smiling at the brunette with a diverted grin.
-Good then- suddenly exclaimed the lip-pierced brunette - it's decided, we are going … my driver will come and pick you guys up on Friday morning, and we'll just come straight to school on Monday, how does that sound?- questioned the brunette.
-Sound good to me … - nonchalantly replied Uruha, as Ruki simply hummed - … since we usually deep from my pockets ... - he then added in a whisper, receiving a pout from Aoi
-Good good … - concluded Aoi swiftly getting up from his chair, and after a short make-out session with the brown haired girl, he waved at the other two, and rushed to his soccer practice.
The rest of the day proceeded with no disturbance, just as announced by Yutaka, who simply remained silent and averted gaze whenever him and his henchmen happen to pass by him or Ruki. The shorter brunette kept trying to concinvce Uruha about the fact that things might actually get better, on their way home, and the honey blond kept smiling at him in response, but he really didn't believe so. There was something he sensed in those seconds he had locked eyes with Yutaka, and it didn't feel right in the least.
He wasn't sure the newly turned brunette would result to physical harm, but Uruha was now quite worried for Ruki's safety, and after checking the neighborhood surroundings, and rather swiftly pecking the younger, he made sure that the shorter safely entered his apartment, waiting for a text stating that he had actually walked into his room.
I have ENTERED my room
you are being paranoid
... go home!
After reading the text, Uruha swiftly looked up, and spotting Ruki's room window among the many of the apartment complex, he saw the figure of the brunette greeting him, and shooing him off. Uruha merely smiled, and after greeting him he began his walk home, making it his mission to incessantly call and text his boyfriend throughout the day, to keep checking for his safety, just in case, considering whether he shouldn't simply camp in front of the apartment complex … all just in case.
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