fuck retarded people. i decided last nite, i have my best friends...thats all ill ever need.

I dont know how things got this bad all of a sudden. I cant even write in here because I cant even say what im really feeling. It would be all a load of crap. Today I went to talk to Andrea about things that are going on, and it made me realize how scared to death I am of this all. Its hard for me to talk about it because i dont want to face ( Read more... )

So this morning started off okay. Actually Mr. Sullivan really made me happy this morning. We had to write down for her who we thougth we were, then give examples of how that applies to phycologist theories of adolescents. Part of what I wrote was something like, "Im scared to know what the world see's me as", underneath it ms. sullivan wrote, "you ( Read more... )

I swear sometimes something is really wrong with me. Wait, i take that back...I know something is wrong with me.  I woke up at 4am this morning after getting to bed around 1230 last nite and being VERY exhausted from the day before. I think I just had so much on my mind that I couldnt go back to sleep. I feel so sick and I have to do another show ( Read more... )

There was a time that I had nothing to explain
Oh, this mess I had made
But then things got complicated
My innocence has all but faded
Oh, this mess I have made

And I don't believe in God
So I can't be saved
All alone as I've learned to be
In this mess I have made

All the untested virtue
The things I said I'd never do
Least of all to you

I know he's kind and ( Read more... )

I love sundays...well except for the fact that I have to look forward to indulging in the spender of school tommorow. I have so much to do, so much to fix, so much to try to ignore. Im not looking forward to it, but Im not one to complain(sarcasm).

Today was nice. I woke up and went to the gym. So I decided to take spinning and it KICKED my ass. I ( Read more... )

Might I just say that Walpole High School drama is the BIGGEST FUCKING JOKE of my life...yes, it sure is. So I say to myself..."I think Ill do the musical because it is my senior year, and I would like to do one final show before i go away to college...oh yes, and its Grease, so even if the rummors that the Walpole High drama program is the biggest ( Read more... )

Today was fun! I got my bellybotton pierced with Becca and Toria! Becca's mom came and so did Mrs. Lamberg's. We were so scared, but it wasnt that bad...we survived :o) Im now watching Friday Night Lights...im bored, i thought it was going to be better. BOOO! Im so happy its vacation, but its so strange like having nothing to do...im usually so ( Read more... )

Well I have certaintly been verrrry productive. I finished my show! FINALLY....Im in love with colby and molly. I dont think i have ever laughed so much. They rock my world. Becca came to see my show on saturday, and brought me flowers :o). I can always count on her.

Last nite i didnt get to sleep till 4am. I have so much on my mind. My mother ( Read more... )

it'll all work out.  you'll see already. in the end it's all nice. -requiem for a dream