Things I want to do this fall, in no particular order ( Read more... )

Yay.  I just feel like updating.  Plus, I found a website I can actually get on from work. (Shhhh!  Most things are blocked ( Read more... )

I'm here again, reading my last post in which I was hoping my 28th year, and also the year 2008, would be better.  I posted that in November and subsequently had a rather crazy December - but!!! - so far 2008 is much better.    I haven't felt any of those heart-wrenching emotions, haven't felt used - I have been, actually, happy.  Things aren't ( Read more... )

I haven't written in here since September.  I logged on out of boredom, really, it's been a long day at work.   I started reading some of my entries written during the past year and thought, WOW.  I didn't even realize what a roller coaster ride I'd been on.  I guess when you are going through something, maybe you don't even realize how tough it is ( Read more... )

I am so tired of being let down.  Do I expect too much from people?   I don't expect extraordinary things.  All I expect is for people to do what they say they will do, and if they can't do it for some reason, just to let me know in a nice way ahead of time.  That is how I try my best to treat others.  That isn't difficult.  If you know you are ( Read more... )

" Let It Go" by T. D. Jakes ( Read more... )

I think I want to volunteer.  Not full-time, obviously, I need a job.  But somewhere, do something.  This would a) help me to realize that it's not all that bad and b) possibly remind me that there are still good people out there in the world, somewhere.  If I could just do something good, somewhere, make a difference somehow, maybe I wouldn't feel ( Read more... )

Every stupid thing I have done since getting divorced, mainly meaning thinking I could trust my ex's friends, has come back to haunt me tonight.  They all want a soap opera and they all twist things and CHRIST I just want  this over.  Joey is the only one actually defending me, of all people.  He knows me better than any of them and so he knows ( Read more... )

Seriously.  Tell me a nice story or something.  That involves a nice person, who does the right thing.  Because my faith in people is waivering.  My faith in me and the world in general is waivering.  Leave me a nice comment here or myspace or somewhere.  Shameless self-plug.  I can't help it.  I refuse to become the person who doesn't see good in ( Read more... )

Why now does he realize he made a mistake?  Why now does he admit that he got engaged just to try to get over me and that it was the wrong thing to do?  He broke up with her.  Why now does he want to work on things?  Why do I matter to him NOW?

Why not back in November when the problems started?  Why NOW?