FUCK YOU HIGHER EDUCATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i miss my friends:( i'm so busy all the time i can't handle it.. but being busy keeps my from missing everyone and realizing how different everything is now

its breaking my heart.

it was fun while it lasted. i will be looking forward to breaks and long weekends again ( Read more... )

HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Valentines Day? [14 Feb 2005|09:07pm ( Read more... )

its been 90 days.

i finally got a new fucking password so i can update again. but today there is nothing good to say. theres too many things making feel sick i can't really narrow it down to just one. my heads pounding and with any luck ill fall asleep early tonight and wake up late tomorrow.

its happening again.

my happiness comes in stages and i'm sick of it. if i'm not bouncing off the walls i'm gloomy..

i use to really like the holidaysssss but this year they are just making everything worse.

school tomorrow.awesome.
bla. bla. bla. bla. bla.

i don't know why i even bother sometimes-i'm just a fuck up.

i'd like to trust that things will be okay, and everything will be different but that line never worked. we fall back into the same sad state. i don't know how to fix it or what to think. all i ever do is imagine all the places i should be, how far i could get without looking back. thats all i ever wanted was to just run and never have to look back ( Read more... )

i don't want to do this anymore.. and by this i mean anything. nothings ever right with me, and i can't keep it going. i talk to people that aren't there and its pointless.

if there's an easy out i'm taking it.

today was amazing. seeing everyone together and having a good time is what summers suppose to be about ( Read more... )