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i'd like to trust that things will be okay, and everything will be different but that line never worked. we fall back into the same sad state. i don't know how to fix it or what to think. all i ever do is imagine all the places i should be, how far i could get without looking back. thats all i ever wanted was to just run and never have to look back. but my nightmares will still follow me, to keep me awake at night. i want something to go right for me, to feel happy for just a second. to be free of horrible thoughts, and the reality of it all. running aways not the answer but its all i know. i never thought it would get to this. feeling this way isn't uncommon... i just wish i could erase all my memories to start over and to get rid of all my negative thoughts.
i'm scared.
tuesdays with J always make me over think things.
i'm scared.
tuesdays with J always make me over think things.