"When all else breaks down, when I feel that I am being crushed by this world, who do I turn to?"

"God?"

"No, I meant someone real."

Sometimes, you just gotta accept that it ain't for you.

Going on my 36th next month has made me realize that maybe, I am not meant to be married.

I like where my life is. Still working on my physique and everyday may be a battle, but its a fight I can win.

This falling in love thing, wife, family, kids thing - I can't just win at it. And it takes ( Read more... )

I have not found her yet, it seems.

I thought it was K. And she had all the attributes: she was absolutely gorgeous, simple, stunning, prayerful, with a good heart and an amazing smile. But then, she moved along. Was it worth waiting for her, knowing there are no sure things? Sure.

Then M came, but I am seriously bored out of my skull trying to ( Read more... )

Okay, all signs point to this one. I have to at least try.

She seems like a good choice, and it doesn't hurt that she kind of looks like Sugai Yuuka (yeah, I'm shallow.)

I'm gonna keep this one quiet, and pray hard for it.

Let's go.

The meaning of life is to change, and evolve.

生きるとは変わること

- Keyakizaka46, "Futari Saison"

Love never dies.

It only transforms into care, melancholy, sometimes sadness, but it never disappears. If you ever loved, you will always remember this person, no matter where they are.

It kills you and pushes you forward at the same time.

From a random YouTube comment on Radiohead's "True Love Waits"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z2hZ9CTLICs

I have worked too damn long and hard to be anyone's second choice.

So, no.

Owaridesne.

This vacation was not only a much needed break, but also a reminder of where things should go from here.

Priorities change with time, and after a couple of months, I will reach the middle of my 30s. There are still so many things I want to do, and many new challenges I want to conquer before I reach 40.

So now is a very bad time for me to once ( Read more... )

Warning: this post is going to sound incredibly selfish and self-assured.

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For the past year, I have been working on being better physically, mentally, financially and I am proud to say that I have accomplished most of it.

Being in the best shape of my life, working out regularly, and experiencing the change it has brought in me mentally as ( Read more... )

Okay, I want a Japanese girlfriend.

Not to marry, just to date. The cultural differences would be too great, but I would like to go on a date with one. Just once.

For the experience. I know I maybe too old for this, but screw it. 34 is just a number.