2019 is here!

2018 has been great for me, fitness wise, and while I did not yet find the love of my life (had a couple of close calls though) I feel like 2019 is the year.

There's a lot of things to be excited about.

Game of Thrones final season. Avengers:Endgame. Middle East Comic Con. Snow Patrol in February. And yes, I guess I'll still watch ( Read more... )

Its hard to lie to myself.

As of now, KEB is Lois Lane. She just is.

It will probably take just a little more time until she's not. But right now, she still is.

Can't lie to myself.

To have an empty heart is not a bad thing.

It means I have a singular focus, a sharp as steel mindset, a strong motivation.

It means I am doing it for myself and not for anyone else.

This is good.

Wow, this might actually happen.

A total shot in the dark it is not. It has been slowly, carefully brewing for 2 years.

Next week is critical. 

If I could go back in time, the first thing I would do is slap some sense into myself. Reading my back entries made me realize how utterly helpless I was, and how much of a procrastinator I am.

"Rain, you're fine. You're making too much of this girl who you just met. Just enjoy the ride." This is probably what I would say all the time.

But then ( Read more... )

The unseen hours are paying off.

Nothing like a little hard work, determination, inspiration, and prayers to make it all come together.

I love doing this everyday: it makes me feel like I have accomplished the little things that add up bit by bit to achieve greatness.

Slowly but surely, we are coming together.

To give hope to those who have none. It was and still is my dream when I started this year.

Its happening.

Thank You Lord for this gift.

...is through food.

Strange, but I don't mind. I like showing off my cooking skills.

M is great. And it has been awesome getting to know her. But why do I have this knot in my stomach that doesn't feel right ( Read more... )

M's song: Butterfly Knife

Never in my life have I been more sure,
So come on up to me and close the door,
Nobody's made me feel this way before,

You're everything I wanted. And more.