Waking up to a notification that this still exists and has for 20 years was a bit of a blast.

I heard recently that if you look back on your adolescent self and don't feel cringe then perhaps you haven't really grown. In all honesty, I barely recognize her. I know that she was me but she was a mess. She was in survival mode from the age of 12, ( Read more... )

I'm not really sure what made me fall off of this thing. Maybe a lack of spelling or a lack of interest. Wasn't this meant for me to rant on and not care about who reads it or could see what's on it? I start school in the fall at BCIT. I am fucking determined to do something useful with myself while I continue on my quests and endevors outside of ( Read more... )

Butterflies are too fragile to be associated with but I guess butterfly it is. They're also very pretty and can't fly well in the rain. I'm hoping to move again, this time maybe with a roommate. Still up in the air with the whole thing but I want out of where I am now. Too many people I thought I could trust are now deciding what's best for me. Not ( Read more... )

So it's Christmas. Hanging out with family and being cheerful. I like it personally. I guess nothing really changes as we get older. The little sister still wants to play, the big brother still worries for the little sister, and the big sister is more of a mom than anything ( Read more... )

Dedicated to Norman Angus MacKenzie May 31, 1949 - November 11, 1999I guess as per custom I should note the passing of the seventh year and although it sounds like I state this with apathy, I truly do not. I know that he is not here, physically at least as he will always be in my heart. I also know that I have many wonderful people still alive who ( Read more... )

So I think I'm being a little smarter with the whole November 11th thing this year. It's beginning to go back to being about the war for me and less about Dad although that factor is still a very major part of it. I don't think I will ever entirely get rid of that, nor do I want to. I'm visiting with Jen on Van. Island for the weekend. I haven't ( Read more... )

I haven't really done a rant about Magic: The Gathering except to mention it a few times. Now I will do this rant because I just looked at Time Spiral a bit and I am needless to say a BIT pissed off that I will be busy on the pre-release date but I will go to Adam's anyway. Screw the downtown party, I just want to touch the new cards. I might ( Read more... )

I found these on my computer at work. I wrote them so long ago I'm surprised ITG didn't remove them. I don't like updating from work but today I had to. I'm supervisor for the next two weeks and not doing all that bad.

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I guess this is what people mean by "doing the right thing". I can't say I'm too fond of it. Usually following your heart can't lead you wrong but when your heart tells you to lie, there's a problem. "It must have been my head playing games. I guess I was just lonely after all the messed up relationships and abuse from my past. I didn't love you ( Read more... )

Isn't it beautiful how songs can tell your story perfectly? It seems that people have this thing for pain. I know I have an affinity for it but I'm not used to people being able to use that against me. There is a reason I'm blue/black. Meet my guild and revel in it's oddity if you want, but I still like it ( Read more... )