Ever have a point in your life where all you want to do is pack a bag and leave? I mean leave everyone, everything and all you know behind. Leave it for somewhere new. Somewhere, where people don't know you or your past. Don't know the things that have caused you to be so emotionally broken that you don't feel like you should be alive anymore ( Read more... )

After ten hours of glorious painful labor I gave into a c-section. Yet as I heard them finally pull you from me and you gave your first scream into this world I knew I would never let anyone hurt you. You are mine to protect and love and give the ultimate guidance to. My darling daughter, my little hybrid phoenix-dragon. You are my world ( Read more... )

Two days... Just two more days ( Read more... )

First off I have to state this... THANK THE GODS SHE FINALLY DROPPED!!! After three excruciating days of side pain and one call to the nurse after nearly falling out in the store she drops. Apparently I've had scar tissue from the abortion that wasn't too friendly with being stretched to accomidate Kharisma's settling downward ( Read more... )

Had an amazing day today with friends and family. Alas, we had to share the park with a art festival. But it was all worth it. Even the humidity ( Read more... )

What can I say? I know I'm late posting as usual. But that's what happens when you are busy as damned hell. From a decent check up at the doctors where I swear both the doctor and Duckie had far too much fun picking on my hip/tailbone spreading issues. -_- Damned military men ( Read more... )

Okay so I've been a pretty active member on this site: Baby Center
Well in the community section I've been kind of living on the forums for a couple of groups. Well one group put up this really funny but awesome thread line for appologizing to our unborn babies for anything we feel bad for. Well here is mine.

Dear Kharisma ( Read more... )

WARNING! : This is a very long entry. And yes it's public for several reasons ( Read more... )

Okay so I meant to post at least one post before now. And got too damn busy to manage. But that's okay! I can wrap two doctor visits into one ( Read more... )

I'm a little late updating about this. But I'm finally calm from the stress whirlwind and able to sit down and write this entry. I'm still getting used to the fact we've been together a year and it honestly not seem like a year ( Read more... )