so much bad news. i must admit to ever one, though they will be greatly disapointed, that yes i was talking to michael again and once again believeing his crap of how he loved me. serves me right. i wonder if he is just doing this to see how many times i believe it and how many times he can hurt me. it sucks to be me believing that and all. god and ( Read more... )

we are selling our house probably. at least ems was only renting hers. i have lived in mine for ever. even worse. if i dont get in to uhs and go there i will probably move to marana or somewhere else. it sucks so bad i dont want to move really, that would suck. i just despite my loathing passion for tucson i dont want to live anywhere smaller. ( Read more... )

i was supposed to get my braces tightened today but they never called my name so i just sat there for an hour waiting. hmmmp. then me and sals came home and then went to work and almost got into a fight with some preppy chick who thinks she is all that but all she can do is think of lame come backs for shit we didnt even say and then when we are ( Read more... )

just updating before school to say a few things. i never got caught up on home work. my dad accused me of smoking but wont give me a reason why. i havnt eaten since yesterday after noon. i dont feel good. matt and dad were fighting this morning. every one fights around here. it sucks. matt fights with mom matt fights with dad dad fights with me and ( Read more... )

babble babble bitch bitch rebel rebel party party sex sex sex and dont forget the volience. sorry that popped into my head. i should be doing homework and i should be getting caught up in the stufff that im not caught up in but that doesnt seem to be working for me right now. i g2g more later
rachel

i had so much hw that i promised myself i would do over this weekend. it is all late or make up and i still havent done it. i was thinking about doing it all right now but i cant fit that much hw into like a half an hour. and blah me and matt stayed up late talking and then we both fell asleep in my room. we went outside last night and we saw ( Read more... )

i got called a poser, by someone who doesnt even KNOW me. what kind of shit is that. i never called my self goth and i am just me, so why cant they just shut the fuck up. GOD FUCKING DAMNIT. i am beginning to hate people more and more every single day. its no wonder i never get calls or emails. i hate everyone. damnit damnit damnit. i feel very ish ( Read more... )

i went to jessicas last night as you all already know because i was there when i last updated. funness. but me and matt gots in trouble, not so much me but yea. anyways today im cooking my mom dinner and giving her the ring, yayness. i still have a cough but yea it will go away soon enough. meep. the cat stratched my knee and it hurts. i got my ( Read more... )

im at jessicas house with my brother and jess. jakey and sean and danny were here but they went to the mall to get image shots of danny and sean. awe cute! anyways im bored matt and jess are in th bedroom doing something... who knows what! lol jk probably sleepin or some shit. no one posted on the poem earlier. guess that means it sucks. really bad ( Read more... )

kinda shitty. i wrote it with no one in mind. nothing in mind. just me listing my pain together so please post comments on how it is, if its good or bad. i dont care. i just need to know. thanks ( Read more... )