I'm so confused. I wish i knew what was wrong.

So I thought I was over the whole getting homesick thing, but I'm not. I missed three birthday's this week, my dad's, my brother's and my stepdad's. I almost cried last night when they were all together and called me, but I held back because it's life and I have to get used to it. I hate being so far/technically not so far from my whole family. I ( Read more... )

asjdkfjdkf...I fucking hate having to pull an all nighter, thank God for NoDoz, although I have to say, it's not working too well right now because I'm getting quite tired but I can't fall asleep because I still have 10 chapters to review. I hate procrastination, so why do I continue to do it? Because I'm a fucking idiot. I'm so happy tomorrow is ( Read more... )

I hate myself so much right now, I want to cry purely out of anger. What a huge fucking wake up call this was, I really am so pissed, mostly disappointed in myself which makes it so much worse. What the hell was I thinking? I don't know, I guess now I know better.

I could not be happier that this semester is almost over. I am looking forward to next semester, I think I'll like my schedule more. However, I am not looking forward to finals since I have 3 cumulative exams coming up. Whatever, I am so over college ( Read more... )

I'm very excited for this weekend because I'm going to get to see my awesome Melissa and Danielle and I miss them so much. I hate not having a close friend here, it feels weird. But yea, I get to hang out with them all weekend yay! Halloween Horror Nights on Thursday, excited about that too even though I've only heard bad things about it. I ( Read more... )

I have absolutely no motivation. Not one single bit. I have a test in Biology on Friday and I haven't started studying yet. I really need to if I don't want to fail it, but for some reason I can't focus. I can't care at the moment, at this point, I could fail, and I really don't think it would bother me that much. Is that bad? Stupid question ( Read more... )

Please, please, please give me strength to deal with this. I really have no choice otherwise, but I'm scared that this won't go away.

I wish I could feel happiness right now.

I miss my mommy so much.

I'm home sick...I miss my mommy so much.

so today was my first day at college and it was alright, no jackass professors ( Read more... )