its so hard for me lately ( Read more... )

life is good and bad.
it varies lately.
often at that.
but i try to make the best of it.
because why would i not do that?
:] nothing really to say
i love my boyfriennddd

life really sucks right now ( Read more... )

blah.
food is the enemy.
i did really good yesterday.
then today was really bad.
and now my stomach feels it.
plus that anxiety feeling is back.
i get it whenever i think about eating.
woo hoo. kind of.

we'll see.
i really miss being skinny..

i have some amazing people in my life.
people who love me for me.
and it just makes me so happy.
when im with them, i feel so good.
like nothing matters.
not what i look like,
what im wearing,
how fat or skinny i am.
they love me anyways ♥

wow. i know they never talk anymore.
and that he pretty much hates her.
but shes so skinny.
shes my inspiration to stop eating.
at least, stop eating as much as i do.
i dont like the way i look.

it feels like he is falling out of love with me.
but when ever i bring it up,
he gets really mad.
does this mean im right?
or does it mean he really does love me?
i dont know :[ all i know
is that im sad.

fdsoijxv i feel so helpless ( Read more... )

i wish i was one of those girls ( Read more... )

reminder to self to update with quotes from the book im reading.