im ready to get back into old habits that i was starting at this time last year. seriously, looking at myself in a bathing suit is really hard and unsatisfactory for me. =( i hate the way my legs are so fat and the thing is i know how to change it, its just going to take some motivation and hard work and stuff. ughhh. but yeah. this is just me ( Read more... )

have you ever felt like you need someone more than they need you? oh its not a fun feeling. but oh well, alls well that ends well, right? :) <3

it seems like all i ever do anymore is the following ( Read more... )

I never thought I would say this, but I feel like God is after me. I feel like I've done something wrong, or maybe everything wrong, so he's making all this bad stuff happen to me. I just don't know. I don't like blaming things on God, but these things that are happening are all out of my hands. I couldn't have done anything to make all of this ( Read more... )

this is just for my own need. dont read it, its boring ( Read more... )

this christmas was extremely different. it kind of bums me out too, because i wanted jeff to be with me for my kind of christmas. because our christmas's are always so fun and my family is so happy when we're all together. but then the day before christmas eve my grandma went to the emergency room and then ended up being in the hospital until ( Read more... )

so formal was so so so super fun ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel like im trying too hard. and getting my feelings hurt too often. i feel like fjosi just doesnt care, and doesnt understand how hard im trying. or how bad im hurting. or yeah. anything at all. i feel like vcxoijf just gets upset, before even caring about how i feel. making me seem like the bad person for having feelings, and the ( Read more... )

well ive gained a lot of weight lately ( Read more... )

so ive made my decision ( Read more... )