What an interesting New Years Eve...

*holds up glass*

Here's to 2005 and may it bring a lot of peace and closure and success to our lives that it seems 2004 didn't allow.

Love to you all!

I'm trying to think positively but it's just not working. I've cried 3 - 4 times tonight. I just can't stay strong and I can't explain to anyone what it is...they don't understand. Well, a lot of you do but those who were around me tonight, no matter how I might try to explain to them, they wouldn't understand ( Read more... )

(this is a very rough, first draft...done in just a couple minutes and only to get some thoughts out of my head so hope no one thinks this is any serious attempt at making any kind of sense ( Read more... )

Oh...and I can't stick to a plan no matter what I have planned out. Argh ( Read more... )

I find myself again with a loss for words. I mean, I know things I am going to say but I can't think of what I really want/need to say in this post to clear my mind. So, I'm going to just do a post about what I've done this weekend....yeah, not much substance but whatever ( Read more... )

I don't understand how my moods are changing so damn much lately. I'm like in Mood Swing Central or something. I had such a good day yesterday....spent it shopping with Dave (yes, he's still around) and goofing off. I was soooo giddy and happy....and then I wake up feeling grumpy again today. I hate it. I usually don't have these flip out ( Read more... )

I had a nice talk with someone last night...it was very much needed and I feel much less stressed about a certain situation. Some of you know what I'm talking about, others don't. Those that do, your confidentiality is much appreciated. I don't know what I would do without having people to talk to. It would definitely drive me crazy ( Read more... )

Lately I haven't been handling things in the best way or making the best decisions. I keep things locked inside out of fear, only letting certain people know what is on my mind...and those people aren't the ones I need to be telling. I am going to work on opening up that door and letting the ones who need to be in the know, know what is going on ( Read more... )

So, I did something yesterday that I had been wanting to do for quite some time. I sent a letter. It was a short letter but I think it makes the point that I needed to make. I know I've blogged about wanting to write this letter for a while ow and about how I usually write it and don't send it or never finish writing it. This time, I wrote it, ( Read more... )

Ok, so I totally goofed last night. I was feeling pretty rough so I decided to take a nap. I finally drifted off about 9pm. I had my alarm set for 10:30 because I didn't want to sleep the entire night. I woke up about a minute before the alarm went off and then reset it for this morning. I laid back down thinking "I'll get up in just a minute ( Read more... )