i dont know why, but going up north this year made me change.
it changed me back to the old alisha.
the one who never does anything wrong, or breaks any laws.
i realized this when i hung out with some people, and they all wanted to go do something that wasnt smart, and were calling me chicken and everything because for once, i didnt want to do it.

when ( Read more... )

I havent updated in forever.
Things have been ok. but could be a million times better

Its getting hard to have more than one group of friends.
Kind of like a game of tug of war.
And i lose either way.
I dont like it at all.

Every single one of my friends seems to be getting a boy
Or already has one.
And these people no longer want to hang out.
Or when we do ( Read more... )

so i realize i havent been here for my freinds this last month or so. and im sorry.
i just needed a break, a break from all the drama to get over somet things i needed to get over.

but i got sucked into some drama today.
and i would like to address this here. were im not embarassing anyone in front of the whole lunch, and not acting like a two year ( Read more... )

i do not care anymore ( Read more... )

"well maybe u could help me out so here it is ok.  there this girl and she is pretty cool an awsome friend but then i started liking her and everyone is telling to go for it but im scared because i got hurt some many times and some where pretty horroible.  i just dont what to do what if she dont feel the same then i just make myself look like an ( Read more... )

shit.
guys. i dont know what to do.
oh my God. i cant deal with this.
and i didnt even do anything this time!

this is what james's friend, ryan, sent me on myspace.

"Ok let you in on something, James really likes you but he is scared to tell you and I really don't no why he is. You are a sweet and lovly girl. I now you really like him too so talk to him ( Read more... )

ok im getting better
im no longer leading mike on
i think he gets the point i dont like him
even tho the other day our manager was like we need to call someone in
and mike was like " ill call alisha! she likes me and has a crush on me." 
wonderful.
but he hung up on me the other day bc i told him i was hanging out w/ ben and brian.
so hopefully he gets ( Read more... )

part of me just doesnt find the same things funny
part of me is different
part of me changed
part of me grew up
part of me moved on
and part of me was broken.

so yeaterday was fun.
brakfast and such with ben in the morning
then funeral dress shopping w/ rae. lol
then heathers where i watched dirty dancing for the first time ever and we went and got pizza. yummmm then i said good bye to her =[
and shes gone to flordia till tueday next week
then drove around w/ sam and got gas and went to mcdonalds for din din.
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ben calls me at 8 this morning
im dead asleep.

he asks me if i want to go to mcdonalds for breakfast.

and for some freaking reason, i agree.
then hes like, oh kay ill be there in five mins

so i just JUMP out of bed to get ready

so we went to breakfast. then went to kohls and walked around playing with the toys and smelling candles
then we went to the mall ( Read more... )