hurting you by what i have to say is the last thing i want to do. you were my bestfriend for years ( Read more... )

days like this i miss you so freaking much
i just have to keep reminding myself everything happens for a reason

but you were the only one that understood this side of me.
knew what to say and everything
its hard without you.

EVERY situation in my life I feel indifferent about as of right now

Everything stable in my life is completely gone.

Every relationship in my life right now is questionable. I don’t know where in the hell im going to be in 2 years from now. As of right now my life has no purpose, I have no ambition, and nothing to work for.

I no longer have that ( Read more... )

yesterday was kind of the last straw.
why cant it be easy to talk about all this shit with more than just one person.

i dont know how longer a can go like this.

everyone has that one thing that makes them feel alive. the one thing that gives them that feeling they think NO ONE else can get. The thing that they cant seem to leave or let go. The thing that they put so much of themselves into. 
everyone has it. 
but what gives them that thing, its different everytime.
but that feeling, its all the same.

ohhh rachael catherine ( Read more... )

i appreciate never being invited to anything. it really makes me feel loved. i already feel like shit because im at home going to school, not away at a better one. i would like if people would just tell me whats going on, i will try MY HARDEST to make it. its just weird that i have people who will drive three hours to come see me, but my own ( Read more... )

 well. last night things finally got settled between tony and i ( Read more... )

this weekend was really stressful ( Read more... )

i hate to talk about all this stuff on livejounral.
but its where i express what im thinking.
if you dont want to read it,
dont.

so there is that whole question "what is love?"
i thought i knew, crazy as it may seems, at age 17.
what the hell was i thinking right.
now i question love all the time. part of me doesnt believe in it.

and now there is my new ( Read more... )