ok, kristina did this for me, so have at it ( Read more... )

i won't deny the pain
i won't deny the change
but should i fall from grace,
here with you
will you leave me too?
will you leave me too?a song i've had trouble listening to ever since it became intertwined at sixteen with pain, loss, and smallness. i miss everything, but i'm not willing to compromise myself to find it again, and even then it's no ( Read more... )

i'm afraid i may have lost one of the only people that i thought understood me enough (and that i thought i understood enough) to always love me and always be around. friendships are rarely unconditional, but i believed this one was, and i still believe it, but it will take me a lot to get over how betrayed i feel. everyone is allowed to have a ( Read more... )

hello fellow compulsive livejournal-friends-list-checkers ( Read more... )

i just had the most phenomenal conversation that i think i've ever had in my life. and i feel safe, and happy, and amazed by the actual simplicity of how convoluted and complicated human lives are ( Read more... )

a birthday party for me, lauren, will transpire in boulder on saturday, may 29. please come! leave a comment with your email address and i'll send you the invite if i haven't already.

paz,
lauren

went out on a whim with a girl from my floor who i've always liked but never hung out with (hardly anyone on my floor is friends, it's very strange.) shots of tequila in plain view on the broadway walkway, denied access to a frat house, arrived at some house party at the same time as the cops--booked it out of there, stood around by the cemetary ( Read more... )

the girl next door to me is having sex and there are loud smacking sounds.

i'm starting to kind of dislike writing in this because of the whole friends list thing...i realize that exhibitionism in some form is the whole point of livejournal, but i can't write what i'm really thinking in here, for many different reasons. on an unrelated note, it is so incredibly irresponsible of me to be updating at the moment, because i ( Read more... )

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