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For a moment this was going to be a facebook note
I get all these thoughts that I want to share, but then I recognize the pervasiveness of words on the internet and I shut up. I write half sentences and then backspace them into oblivion, or into the purgatory of waiting for a proper audience. There is no proper audience these days. So much noise I think maybe it'd be better to side with silence, ( Read more... ) -
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While I'm getting ready to post there are a million things I want to say. When the box appears they all just go. I know I'm not a good guy. I know I can be, and at times have been. I'm not sure if I'll ever be again. It's hard to maintain friendships and try to pull together a family, a community a house. Other men, and women do it. I just wish I ( Read more... ) -
on the other side of the field generator
"Fuck You," She screamed through Kool-Aid stained lips. It was the last image I held of her, my sister in arms. As I walked through the archway of the remote desert outpost. Her mumbled curses were muted by the shield generators steady hum. I know we go to a better place, some of us just aren't ready when our tickets get punched. I'm not ready, but ( Read more... ) -
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I had this really reflective introspective entry in mind. But instead you get this. Try not to get to excited. I wont blame you if you do though. I mean this is really titilating stuff. I've been spending alot of these extra hours meditating, and that inaction has brought me alot of peace. I feel good lately, not spazzy, OMG good, but more Marley, ( Read more... ) -
Can I please have another crack at being then
I'm thinking about alot of things tonight. Mostly just what I'd like to see. I know that expectation and nostalgia are the quickest routes to unnecessary suffering, but my nostrils begin to burn if I stay to aware of the moment. Fucking cold wet Michigan. I love this state. I don't know why. I mean I could come up with a hundred reasons why, and ( Read more... ) -
A dime
Channel surfing the sunsets on different planets the social requests made by moral purists my mind is timed by rhythm and rhyme thats left this line unrefined I'm sick so sick of being to quick when my workd tells me to slow down it's not round must be square most air is apparently there try not to stare because you can't see it just breathe it If ( Read more... ) -
Made in some momentary display of yum
What were we going to do? I had no idea and still am unsure. I do hope though that it will happen, and smile when it doesn't. See I got teeth, 9 or ten of them spread across my fingers and face. Lets look out the window of the van I don't yet have but remember riding in as a child. The cold water seems so far away from where we are now. The air has ( Read more... ) -
The rain in Michigan
I was encouraged to go out tonight and I did. Not necessarily what I had hoped, but I made it out. said some hi's, shook some hands. My butt moved a bit, and i liked it. But then, the man offended the identity by questioning possibility, and we walked home in the rain. It's not the same scene, and i have not the patience. That's died, from fear ( Read more... ) -
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Write right now! Like I don't care how. This keyboard will do. I hope that you have found a few days to keep the greys at bay. Cuz sometimes life seems a little bit alien to me. I'm pleading for a Pleiadan intervention in my mind about resurrection of design defined divine by a dime store profit or a dollar store savior. Whats the flavor of the day ( Read more... ) -
I'm actually already over this
So NOW my fucking boss is dead. Heart Attack! I'm so sick of all this sickness and death and fear and uncertainty and bullshit. I mean I know I'll do just fine no matter what happens to my job but seriously it's just *sigh*. I started working at this hotel 9 years ago. I began as a security guard just a week after my boss (Mike) started running the ( Read more... )