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it seems a state of depression has sunk in there is no love for me here. He does not love me. I am just too stupid to let him go. I just can't bare to see him with someone else but it is inevitable. He will be and there is nothing I can do. Yes I love him, but I cannot stop him because he does not love me back. But who am I to do a thing anyways it ( Read more... )

what to say when you have no words. Nothing.
i am yet again alone waiting on justin to come by so taht we can go swimming.
blah. THAT IS MY MOOD!!!

this seems pointless me writing in a journal that maybe no one will ever read but I am so unenthused about everything going on in my life right now. I hate my current situation. I have no car, my apartment is way too expensive and way too big for just me, but I can't get rid of it in hopes that Justin might so happen to decide to move back in with ( Read more... )

I haven't wrote in a while. I am not so sure why but I guess no one really reads this thing any ways. I was trying to update it but I am so computer illiterate that it has been very difficult for me. I know that seems ignorant but I can't help it. Anywho nothings new I am working alot I am finally on summer vacation but it doesn't seem like it ( Read more... )

My life is nothing but a spinning circle. I have nothing left. I am empty. I have loved so much and I am only so young. I hate to waste myself on people that don't care. I hate to love with all I have and yet feel nothing in return. I hate to think that there is so much more out there then just him and us. I hate to think that I have been jaded or ( Read more... )

belittled by his anger i sit in this corner and cry pressing my knees to my chest my tears slowly soak my jeans. my eyes burn from all my hurt and my ears ring from everyones voices calling out to me in saneness. why do i stay with him through all this I ask myself as i sit beside him with a kept up smile. Even with his scripted tainted words i ( Read more... )

i hate everything right now ( Read more... )

I am so bored of my life ( Read more... )

I write to be heard ( Read more... )