misplaced. confused. desperate.

[lameash]

it seems a state of depression has sunk in there is no love for me here. He does not love me. I am just too stupid to let him go. I just can't bare to see him with someone else but it is inevitable. He will be and there is nothing I can do. Yes I love him, but I cannot stop him because he does not love me back. But who am I to do a thing anyways it gets me no where he doesn't even like talking to me. I waste all my time, money and happiness on us and it gets me no where and hopefully something will change soon. I might die. GO CRAZY if I am not already there. I hate this the thoughts I have I love him to death. and to the death I will take this love though he will have forgot about me by than. I do love him oh so much.

confused I will stay till he walks away.
I love him
I can't keep him here forever though.
so I try to say good bye it doesn't work.
I hold him in my hands til I cry myself to bed.
sadness lingers over me.
I wish he was still mine.

I love him!!!