ok this is going to sound crazy but iam going to make a new name on lj. why? because lilkjo2qt  is on my friends list and i dont want it there anymore. your saying stupid girl take it off right? well i have and it won't go away its like permantly attached or something. new lj will be ladymustang if no one else has it.

i commented on jessica's journal. is something the matter with me yes i think so. i must have a death wish or something. one day blake is going to come find me and shot me or something. sometimes i just want to be nice to her and for some reason let her know iam alive. but thats really stupid cause she dont care about me. i dont know. i have ( Read more... )

my heart told me that it doesnt love me.

No sleep ( Read more... )

tell me why i almost cut my finger off today. i was using a boxcutter to scrap a secuity sitcker off of some glass. and i thought i was pushy enought just to get the sticker off but i pushed so hard that it went into my left thumb. i had to go to the er cause it wouldnt stop bleeding turns out that i needed two stiches to keep my thumb together. ( Read more... )

has anyone noticed that there is no profanity in my post lately......that school is going to change me for sure.

iam going to go to hobby lobby in a few min. and buy my stuff for the painting iam going to start soon. yay. iam also going to go buy some mary jane for tonight cause if someone doesnt go out with me tonight iam atleast saying i am going out with them and then ill go get high by myself.

i wish one of my past relationships would have been like their's. i wish i could have been away from my girlfriend/boyfriend and feel like they wasnt cheating on me or deciding that they didnt want to go out with me anymore. and i wish i could be like that now where i could let anyone i know away from me. i wish i could feel like my friends are out ( Read more... )

ok, so yesterday i go to my college and do everything i have to do to go to school there. all the rules i know right now are ( Read more... )

i am in a really odd mood right now. i dont want to go to this college thing cause i dont want to get ready. but i cant wait to pick out my classes and everything. i am tired cause i stayed up last night talking to people and playing sweet tooth. the major question that has been on my mind lately is i look at my friends think of them and then ( Read more... )