Comments | lacephotograph: the first night

lacephotograph

the first night

Mar 22, 2009 09:05

I didn't sleep much. I thought I would because crying is exhausting, but I couldn't. I never got into that deep sleep. I kept waking up. I only checked my phone for the time twice. Once at 2:30am and then again at 6:45am, when I decided that going back to sleep seriously wouldn't happen. It was so hard to get to sleep. It wasn't my bed, my ( Read more... )

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mycellostrings March 21 2009, 23:34:43 UTC

Wow. I am so sorry that all of this happened. I went through something similar two summers ago after my ex dumped me for her ugly ass roommate. I even cried at work. It was horrible.

Once you get through the initial pain and horrible heartache, you will see that you will be okay, and somewhere down the road, you will look back at these moments of pain and wonder how the hell you made it out okay. But, you WILL make it through. I know it seems hopeless almost all the time, every waking moment, but you will make it.

And, you will find someone else AMAZING and it will be so much better than anything you had with Mark. Ask anyone who has gone through a horrible breakup. You just have to keep yourself occupied with other people and things until you're able to think clearly enough to process your feelings and emotions. And then you have to scream and cry somemore and then reprocess....etc. But, you will come out stronger than ever and more wonderful.

Love.

lacephotograph March 24 2009, 04:05:17 UTC

Thanks for all this love! You'll be happy to know that things have gotten back to normal now, and we're back together and fighting the world together.

kandielei March 22 2009, 01:33:31 UTC

hope today goes ok and you're able to distract yourself.

as much as it hurts right now you know that he'll end up sorry and you'll end up stronger and ultimately happier. also azaria should really learn to keep her mouth shut around people that know you. or just shut in general.

i understand about wanting to stay where you are now, it would be such a huge upheaval to change places, plus you'd have to rely on a lot more people to get around etc. maybe you could have a backup place you can go for a night or two if things get tough.