I'm going to make a new journal because I'm beyond parnoid of what I'm allowed to write which makes no since becasue the person who read it all the time doesn't anymore and Josh well he doesn't like what I write and I understand that but this is my journal I did this one so I can take advice from people who I don't see or talk to on a daily bases ( Read more... )

I guess I had a so far so good day nothing to complain about really but nothing to really love at the same time. I don't it makes me think sometimes that they pain will never go away i will alwaise hurt. i kind think what's worse then death is the knowledge of dying not just the that but dying from the inside out. i feel like soon there might not ( Read more... )

Life SUXS !!!!!!

Just thought I would let you know!

I guess today was an of day i got into a car accident. no little one either and i was scared I didn't know what to do I knew it was my fault. Uncle Jai just happened to be driving by when it all happened. Stopped and came calmed me down for a bit took my nug I had and went to Josh's and tell them what was up. Sabrina came to get me I guess because ( Read more... )

Now my journal has to go to friends only becasue someone found it... and got to be all up in my business i was wishin to meet new ppl on line through this one but it has to go private. Thanks much u know who u are if ur gonna make effort to not be around make and effort to not give a fuck about whats goin on!

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I can't stand the pain or handle the tears I want to leave you here and just forget...
I can't sing my voice is gone and yet the song still plays....did you listen?

"Can't Believe" ~Mya

You told me that you didn't love her anymore
But then you turn around and you walked out the door door
Now whether you go or if you stay babe
I still be loving you ( Read more... )

Where is exactly is my place? Like I keep sayin everytime I get comfortable let my guards down a bit someones Actions seem to throw me off my center. I hate it! I'm only human my emotions are uncontrolable, but if I could control them I would......

I don't know!!!

If all things grow why did my feelings grow so rapidly when 1 I don't want them too ( Read more... )

I have had this spirital awakening thanks to my girlfriend...lol!!:D No really if it wasn't for Sabrina I would still be lost and aggravated and just more shit ya know I understand these feelings I have these gut feelings, Insticts ya know.

Josh and I have always been close and i couldn't see us not doing what this last year was but the one night ( Read more... )

I haven't written in a long time but I haven't really had time I've been moving house to house and I'm back home (as a last resort) and of course life itself has been nutts. so here is a summary:

I got kinda kicked out of the my grandparents house for being me (Pot-head) and I hadto give them a $1,000 dollars for the car they gave to me for ( Read more... )