nobody can save me. only i can do it.

there is no other explanation for the way i live my life except that i love to be miserable. nothing else makes sense.

so this is life, eh? i'm not very good at making life not boring. i did have a friend at work that made work a lot more interesting..but of course he shipped off to a new job in another state. so. yay for him, boo for me ( Read more... )

i'm sad, and i'm going to be sad, and i don't want anyone's help.

there's just something about sitting in the middle of an orchestra, playing your heart out and giving it your very most. i love it.

david is gone. he is deploying to kuwait. right now he's on an airplane somewhere on his way to germany. he told me about it in december, and i can't believe the day has come so soon. i'm going to miss him so much. four months is a long time.

when we fall in love...
we're just falling
in love with ourselves
we're spiralling

i am lonely. but somehow, i just want to be by myself.

argh. i am being mopey. krissi, stop being mopey! stop moping! do stuff already! i could be doing any number of interesting things right now: playing fable 2, tinkling around on my new piano keyboard, reading manga, reading a fluffy book by jennifer weiner, watching sanctuary. blah blah maybe i'll stop being mopey next week..

finally things are good. so, so good. hope i don't mess it up!