to love and be loved. this is all i want.

i. never. learn.

pain
make your way to me
to me
and i'll always be just so inviting
if i ever start to think
straight
this heart will start a riot in me
let's start
start HEY

why do we like to hurt so much?
oh why do we like to hurt so much?

that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa

my dishwasher is leaking. i found out when i slipped on the puddle and banged my knee all to hell. why does this apartment want me dead?

yesterday i ran over a bird and killed it. i am sad.

have you ever stopped and thought about how amazing your body is? no, i mean it. sometimes i just look at my hands, and move them, and think how amazing they are. all the things they can do. and my body! it's mine, it's totally mine. i have complete control over it. nobody else can control me. total autonomy ( Read more... )

wish i had something to cry about.

when someone else accomplishes something, that does not diminish my accomplishments. when someone else is good, i am not less good. the only goal i have right now is to not be jealous of or envy anyone. other people can have things, and i can have things too. i don't need anything anyone else has. you can be happy, and i can be happy too.

i feel ( Read more... )

today i learned something about myself: mold on my dishes in the sink makes me gag profusely, but i didn't puke. i even went on to eat some oatmeal once i finished scrubbing off the moldy dishes and putting them in the dishwasher.

dance with me ( Read more... )

you know, working 60 hours a week wouldn't be so bad if i knew what the hell i was doing half the time. i don't. here's how you learn to do taxes: they give you last year's file and this year's information, and say "do what they did last year!" it's like doing a puzzle, but blindfolded. sometimes i know so little about something that i don't even ( Read more... )

finally i understand why everyone was in such a rush to get married in college. it'd be nice to have someone to come home to.