...so i'm sitting here, bored as hell, and watching Forensic Files (good shit!) because i can't sleep. everyone keeps asking me questions.

what's new with you?
truth is, not much is new, i've been walking around, angry at the world, and for what? stupid shit i seem to keep setting myself up for. time and time again, i lay my heart on the line, ( Read more... )

i convinced myself to attempt to update this thing. it's been a long time since the last time that i did, and much has changed. i made it through graduation, and got accepted to school in chicago. yeah, chicago. that's a huge fuckin' move, but i am going to make myself take it because who's to say that i'll get the opportunity again? that, and ( Read more... )

...things are trying to move into the realm of content, but not quite happiness. I don't know what to say about it, other than, i hope this is a good change of pace for me, because my patience for bullshit is more than worn. There are about 26 days left until i graduate, and that makes me smile, but not as much as it should because there are just ( Read more... )

to just give up. God, i want to give up. I'm so tired, and the tears, the fucking tears...when will i see the perks of all the work i've done? it's just letdown after fucking letdown. I can't cope. Lord, help me.

...well folks, i was looking and hoping for my miracle, and, well it's not here...but, God works in mysterious ways. guess i'll have to keep waitin' this one out. so tired of playing things out in my head, gotta take some action at some point, but i am so scared to do so. on another note, 60 days til graduation...i'll make it there, God willing ( Read more... )

...I'm only writing because it's been forever, and i am bored, lol. i have had a lot going on, especially health-wise, but i have decided that i really want to graduate, so i will make that my focus instead of worrying about the things that are going wrong. it just makes you have a bad perception of everything, even the good. i've been blinded ( Read more... )

...life is crazy. I was looking back at the last entry i made, and what i said, and i was remembering how upset and bitter i was when i said it. well, things have changed in the meantime, i don't know if it is for the better or for the worst yet, but in due time, i will know. and you can be assured that whatever effect it has on me, i will use ( Read more... )

...I quit. Can't take it anymore.

...I was in the ER again today, reaction to the meds i was given. i hate that people think that just because you are sick, that makes you stupid. anyway, i still feel like crap, but i have clearance to go back to class and work tomorrow...don't wanna, but i have a lot of shit to make up, and i have to get a roll on grad school stuff again. in ( Read more... )

...i feel like shit. i went to the ER yesterday, and they say i have a sinus infection, an upper respiratory infection and bronchitis...the worst timing for this EVER. my term paper was due yesterday, and i got it in 7 minutes before the deadline, and it was not the length it was supposed to be. I am so behind, and don't want to miss any more ( Read more... )