Yay! A nice day, even if cold/wintery and generally unproductive. Down to 107.4! Even while cheating a bit last night and having a big old late night "snack"...I can live with that.

I am in a sort-of random, happy mood today...Not terribly motivated, but happy all the same. Guess I should mobilize and do the boring housework stuff like the laundry ( Read more... )

why can't i freaking learn how to say no? just once? sometimes i get tired of doing "favors" for the rest of the world...and there is never a payback. never do i get to ask for favors in return. at least not in this instance. somehow i am getting screwed, and i have no one to blame but myself. because apparently i can't... say... no....i guess part ( Read more... )

i'm so sleepy...could probably sleep standing up even. would be nice. so cold outside. need a warm snuggly soft kittie blankie and my couch for a long winter's nap. ahhhh. that would be lovely!

but no. i'm at school. in the coffe shop outside the library, where random computers are...trying not to freeze to death (haven't they heard of heat here? i ( Read more... )

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I thought about using "humiliation" in place of "mortification"...but the true definition of mortification just seemed so much more appropriate: "1. A feeling of shame, humiliation, or wounded pride, 2.Death or decay of one part of a living body"...I just liked that "death or decay" part, although it would techinically be referring to a "living ( Read more... )

So the "Name Calling" part is all long and weird, so I'll just cut it in case you don't want to bother...

So what is it with name calling these days, anyway? We are all guilty of it, whether we realize it or not...Things just seem to pop out of our mouths without much thought. I think of myself as a generally nice person most of the time, but if I ( Read more... )

I don't get it. I don't sleep. Or I sleep all the time. But there is no lovely in-between. You know, like - sleeping for 8 hours at NIGHT like a normal person. And when I do manage to sleep for an hour or two, I have those horrible dreams where you think you are awake, but you are paralyzed and can't move or speak or scream...and someone is always ( Read more... )

why is it that motivation is always so hard to find? and there doesn't seem to be a lot of wiggle room - i either have it in boundless amounts, or i have none at all. hmmm. these days, i have none at all. i wake up with lots of it, and by the time i get everyone where they need to go, it has magically disappeared...then it seems to come back in the ( Read more... )

You know, student loan deferrment is a wonderful thing...until it ends. Got the notice today that I have to start paying on three of them again...already been paying on two. The total for the new three will be almost $300 a month!! That's a hella sticker shock...already sent in paperwork to try to consolidate...I can't afford $400 a month in ( Read more... )

So this latest obsession of mine is getting really old...but as it is an obsession, I seem to be unable to stop myself. Perhaps too much time on my hands is the problem. More likely, I need to get up off my butt and start doing something that is actually productive...Somehow that is not nearly as much fun ( Read more... )