and all that stuff...
blah.
made it through my first semester at NKU, nothing too rough. should've had all a's, of course, and did until the last few weeks. just got totally burned out and dropped the ball...i'm used to quarters - damn semesters are long! but i made it through with a 3.33, and that is going to have to be good enough for now. so much for graduating with a 4.0, eh? started spring semester last week, and am already anxious for it to be over with. the good news is that i'm getting a bunch of the stupid gen ed crap out of the way. the bad news is that means lots of papers and speeches and other ickiness. oh well.
had gum surgery right after the new year (jan. 2nd) and that sucked pretty bad. serious ouchies...a full week of being useless and not being able to eat. the good news is that i lost 10 pounds, so now i'm on a mission to lose 10 more...at least. i'm stupid, but i miss being skinny like i used to be back before three babies and life got ahold of me. it felt nice to fit into size 2's again. since i literally couldn't eat anything but soup for a week, my stomach apparently shrank and now i just don't really get hungry. so one small meal a day for me, and sometimes a little snack. i keep losing a little bit here and there and don't even feel like i'm "dieting" or whatever.
so yeah. i'm boring. kinda sad that i watched that stupid supernanny show tonight to make me feel like a better parent. at least my kids aren't telling me to eff off, right? *yet* although i guess paxil has actually made me a better parent in a way. i'm still glad when it gets to be bedtime, though. i need a little bit of quiet time in the evenings. selfish, i guess. it's tiring trying to do it alone all the time. and i know i shouldn't complain - because when i do have "help" it usually makes me crankier.
randomness.
sucks that i haven't posted forever but still don't have anything interesting to say. blah. that's just what life is right now, i guess. blah. am i done with college yet?
jeez, it's been a freaking 14-year long mission. granted, i've had to stop and start many times. i've had "real" jobs along the way, i guess. and popped out three kids. got married. so much has happened since those days of high school...those days that i keep swearing i would never go back to. i hated high school...but i bet i'd do it differently if i could go back. don't get me wrong, i love my babies and wouldn't trade them for the world...
i feel like i just didn't grow up until i hit about 27 or 28 (although before then i would have been insulted as hell if someone didn't think i was an adult)...for some reason i was 10 years behind where i was supposed to be. wtf? and now that i feel a little more grown up, i'd like to take back some of the "grown-up" decisions i've made in the last 12 years. i have more insight now, dammit. hard to believe, but i do. i want to kick myself in the ass a lot of times for the stupid things i did...the dumb decisions that have lasting effects on me every day of my life now. if you can even call it a life. so much i would like to change.
anyway. yeah. this is long, and mostly useless. so...
end.
made it through my first semester at NKU, nothing too rough. should've had all a's, of course, and did until the last few weeks. just got totally burned out and dropped the ball...i'm used to quarters - damn semesters are long! but i made it through with a 3.33, and that is going to have to be good enough for now. so much for graduating with a 4.0, eh? started spring semester last week, and am already anxious for it to be over with. the good news is that i'm getting a bunch of the stupid gen ed crap out of the way. the bad news is that means lots of papers and speeches and other ickiness. oh well.
had gum surgery right after the new year (jan. 2nd) and that sucked pretty bad. serious ouchies...a full week of being useless and not being able to eat. the good news is that i lost 10 pounds, so now i'm on a mission to lose 10 more...at least. i'm stupid, but i miss being skinny like i used to be back before three babies and life got ahold of me. it felt nice to fit into size 2's again. since i literally couldn't eat anything but soup for a week, my stomach apparently shrank and now i just don't really get hungry. so one small meal a day for me, and sometimes a little snack. i keep losing a little bit here and there and don't even feel like i'm "dieting" or whatever.
so yeah. i'm boring. kinda sad that i watched that stupid supernanny show tonight to make me feel like a better parent. at least my kids aren't telling me to eff off, right? *yet* although i guess paxil has actually made me a better parent in a way. i'm still glad when it gets to be bedtime, though. i need a little bit of quiet time in the evenings. selfish, i guess. it's tiring trying to do it alone all the time. and i know i shouldn't complain - because when i do have "help" it usually makes me crankier.
randomness.
sucks that i haven't posted forever but still don't have anything interesting to say. blah. that's just what life is right now, i guess. blah. am i done with college yet?
jeez, it's been a freaking 14-year long mission. granted, i've had to stop and start many times. i've had "real" jobs along the way, i guess. and popped out three kids. got married. so much has happened since those days of high school...those days that i keep swearing i would never go back to. i hated high school...but i bet i'd do it differently if i could go back. don't get me wrong, i love my babies and wouldn't trade them for the world...
i feel like i just didn't grow up until i hit about 27 or 28 (although before then i would have been insulted as hell if someone didn't think i was an adult)...for some reason i was 10 years behind where i was supposed to be. wtf? and now that i feel a little more grown up, i'd like to take back some of the "grown-up" decisions i've made in the last 12 years. i have more insight now, dammit. hard to believe, but i do. i want to kick myself in the ass a lot of times for the stupid things i did...the dumb decisions that have lasting effects on me every day of my life now. if you can even call it a life. so much i would like to change.
anyway. yeah. this is long, and mostly useless. so...
end.