So Terribly Wrong

[kianspo]

Title: So Terribly Wrong
Beta: Unbetaed; wanna give it a go -- be my guest
Pairings: Established K/S; Kirk/Pike, Kirk/others implied
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: See the pairings? Infidelity. Smut. OOC. Not a happy morning story.
Word count: 1833
Summary: "What would you have me do, Jim?" -- "Be enough."
Notes: The working title for this was 'Strange

Comments

[blue_jack]

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I'm just...I'm just so mad at Jim! And I hate that he told Spock to "be enough," because if Jim is unhappy with something in their relationship, it's his fault, not Spock's, especially when Spock had no idea! Although, I do wonder if Spock knew or not, because it's like he's been purposefully blind to it, although I guess hindsight is ever perfect. And I'm not going to go into mind melds and stuff, but I hate infidelity fics, hate them, and now I'm all grumpy. Hmph. Lol, still that's a compliment to your writing my dear that you inspire those kind of emotions, and as always, I love you and your work.

[kianspo]

Sorry. I did warn you. >.<

Oh dear, I can't even begin to comprehend what those two are playing at here. This piece pretty much came to me as it is, and I couldn't contain it. All I can say for sure is that this isn't as simple as 'Jim is a jerk' thing. It takes two to tango. And I'm not sure which one of them has got it worse. D:

[blue_jack]

That actually makes me feel slightly better, lol. *headdesk* But I wasn't certain if it was Kirk just being an ass, or if there was something more going on. And it makes me wish I did know what Jim's POV was, but this was such a short piece relative to all the emotions it portrays, so even if we did know what Jim was thinking, it probably wouldn't help me understand. Sigh. These guys...

[kianspo]

Oh, Jim's being an ass alright. But I doubt he enjoys it, otherwise his plea for help doesn't make much sense, nor does Spock's apology. These guys, indeed. Sometimes they drive me crazy without explaining anything.

[primarycolors92]

This... I don't even know. I want to hate Jim, but I can't because Spock doesn't, and it really is all just so sad and so unfair.

Really well done. I liked the scene with Pike and Spock.

[kianspo]

Thank you. I'm not sure I can take credit for this, because it's one of those pieces that kinda wrote itself. I want to hate Jim and I want to hug him. I want to smack Spock and to hug him, too. I can only hope they'll figure it out eventually.

[primarycolors92]

Would you consider doing a follow-up piece? I'd love to read Pike's POV on the relationship. Or a fic when Jim gets space!clap from one of his conquests and he and Spock need to get treated. Then Bones can be all gruff and call them idiots bur secretly be all sweet and concerned.

(Sorry. I love Bones. SFM.)

It's interesting to me, here, how much Spock blames himself. There's no way he deserves all that blame anymore than Jim deserves total absolution, but it's much harder to accurately pinpoint what isn't working when the narrator has self-loathing issues :(

It's not your fault, bb!Spock! You two crazy kids can figure it out!

[kianspo]

I honestly couldn't say about a follow-up. It might happen, I guess. But I doubt it'll be any less strange than this one. '__'

Oh dude, IKR? Spock is impossible like that. I have some vague inkling about what's going on, but he's not making it easy any more than Jim does. Those two.

[kianspo]

Ha. I'm pretty sure all three of them know that Pike's just a guest star here. Sadly, kicking his ass wouldn't have solved anything.

I appreciate the comment. I don't know what is wrong with Jim, or Spock for that matter. I doubt they do themselves. Every opinion matters.

Thank you.

[rovardotter]

It's the second time in a short time when Jim is acting like an asshole in your fic (the first was DNSB 4.1 - I'd really wanted to punch him in the face for his stupidity and stubbornness there). And I couldn't understand Spock. It's like he couldn't live with Jim, but also couldn't live without him. Never end good.

[kianspo]

It wasn't a short time for me. DNSB 4.1 was written -- I dunno, about two months ago, maybe more. This fic was written last night.

It's like he couldn't live with Jim, but also couldn't live without him.
I think this is a big part of it, yes, and it works both ways. And no, it never really does end well.

[rovardotter]

Yea, I know that DNSB wasn't recently for you, they just were posted close to each other.

I'm really sorry but I don't believe in 'both ways' (not in your story, but in RL). I mean usually one person love so much that he\she ready to forgive and reconcile with something painful and unbelievably hard, and other part always like 'Oh, I love you sooo much' and continue to make all the distressful things. And for me it's not love. Unhealthy dependence, yes, but not love.
I hope that in this story Spock will leave Jim and find someone who will love him without pain and torture.

[kianspo]

Which is why this is still fiction. :)

I dunno. I dunno how this story goes on yet. I guess I'll have to wait and see if the rest of it comes to me. ;)

[lowcutjeans]

A very interesting piece.
Relationship dynamics on RL are far more strange that everything an author could write, but you did a good work with this fic.
I believe you touched several painful topics here, infidelity being just a small part of the iceberg.

[kianspo]

Yeah. There are a lot of aspects to this that disturb me, and no, the actual cheating isn't at the top of the list.

Thanks, BB.