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little
little i just got off the phone with you for the last time before you're gone abroad in the netherlands for eight months. and that is true on two accounts: that was the last time and you are gone. both could be amended "for now" but really it was the last time as we are or were, and you are gone. for now. but when you get back i won't be here ( Read more... ) -
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once again, you are next to me only this time you are not lyla; this time you are savannah and no you might not have a drinking problem, but why was i having a great time and then I was with you and I felt like shit? I don't feel like shit because i need to regulate your drinking, so why do i feel like shit? you threaten me with all of you ex ( Read more... ) -
feel me feeling somewhere remotely inside me
rosie i'm not worthy of your friendship of your kindness of your trust. your face turned to mine open and smiles in your eyes because you don't know i'm not worthy of you and your trust and your kindness. i don't know how to tell you because i don't want to tell you why, i just want you to know that i am not worthy of those open eyes you offer me ( Read more... ) -
remix
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an orgasm feels like taking the bottom out from everything. the contraction of the earth and all that make it up under me like giant diaphragm. i feel the bottom coming off my legs and the contents falling gracefully down. the diaphragm suction pulls at the bones in my arms and the force is distributed evenly so it is a gentle dispersion of ( Read more... ) -
"this is my heart. it is a good heart."
mm what have i been thinking about today? i don't know. i was thinking that i hate that i am addicted to wanting girls to think i'm attractive. it takes up so much of my thoughts. if i never got any positive reinforcement, i wonder if i would still think about it as much. i sometimes wish i was unattractive to people so that i could focus only ( Read more... ) -
something
i don't think i want to be around anyone right now because i don't like how i forget all of the things i want to work on in myself, and then afterward looking back i really don't like myself or how i behaved. i'm too self centered and i forget to step back and listen and appreciate things and really understand them. everything just goes too fast ( Read more... ) -
Mentirosa
We've waited so long for love like this. I never knew her i'll never know her. will she ever be happy ( Read more... ) -
revival
i was thinking last night that i haven't learned the art of taking ego out of communication. i feel like people who do that have something to say that they don't want to obstruct, like the content is all that matters. the rest of us are conscious of the fact that the content is coming out of our mouths and they are our ideas. there is ego ( Read more... ) -
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