Last night I had a dream where I went bicycling and geocaching around the neighborhood and had a good time. It was a beautiful sunny day, and I was happy. I was disappointed when I woke up and realized I was just lying in my bed like a dead fish instead of being outside and living my best life; I knew that if I go outside, I am rattled with anxiety ( Read more... )

I don’t remember what kind of dreams I had last night, but I remember that they weren’t too nice ( Read more... )

☮️ I have fallen behind on updating my LiveJournal blog, and also writing my real- life paper diary ( Read more... )

Sometimes I believe that I am not actually schizophrenic. Sure, I have delusions, but my first nurse told me that they are just bad memories, and that I don't actually have schizophrenia. Then again, zie was the nastiest bitch there ever was, I never believed hir anyway, just like zie didn't believe me a word I said ( Read more... )

Last night when I went to bed, I was feeling a bit sad ( Read more... )

Last night I had a dream about one of my friends whom I miss terribly. I also had a dream about Michael Bay’s Transformers movie franchise, about beautiful landscapes, and in one extremely realistic dream, my dad drove me and my mother to Manse in his car. I have had so many dreams about downtown Manse, that sometimes I actually forget what it ( Read more... )

I spent the entire Saturday sleeping, simply because I saw no reason in getting up because I had nothing special to do. Not even coffee motivated me to get up. It was sad, really ( Read more... )

I didn't sleep much last night. Perhaps I should lay off the coffee (or at least switch to decaf) and stop surfing on the Internet on my smartphone, they keep me awake ( Read more... )

I had some very intense dreams, not exactly nightmares but some of them were really sad.

I got up about at eleven o'clock in the morning, and didn't bother with having a wash or eating a decent breakfast. I just took my morning medicine and dressed up.

I went to see my parents, my mother was going to give me the rest of the monthly allowance.

I took a ( Read more... )

I stayed awake all night, because I was too busy knitting or watching Netflix on my smartphone app; I watched the rest of the movie Transformers: Dark of the Moon, and a couple of episodes of Transformers: Robots in Disguise. As you can see, I have regained my interest in both TF and TF2.

The knitting was really frustrating; the squares are ( Read more... )