I just don't know what I'm supposed to do now.

my hopes are set pretty high.

eek.

this feeling is horrible. i can't describe it. it feels like a part of my heart is literally missing. and when i am not thinking about the constant pain, i don't feel it. but as soon as i let myself get distracted, my mind wanders to him and the pain is almost unbearable. it was honestly the hardest thing i have ever had to do. it was the worst ( Read more... )

 i'm unhappy. not in a depressed, suicidal kind of way. i guess i am more disappointed than anything. isn't your life supposed to get better as you get older? i would give almost anything to be as happy as i was last summer. nothing is the same as it was. nothing. and nothing is as simple as it was back then, either. sometimes i can look back on ( Read more... )

i'm screwed.

i fucking hate people.

i'm scared she'll think she can't trust me. even though it wasn't me.

fuck it. 

so i'm on my parent's computer, and it keeps making random noises. it's freaking me out.

life is good.

i miss the brat pack.

it's weird that the girl i loathed last summer is now one of my best friends. i can tell her anything.

i need to brush my teeth.

aaaaaaaaaaand i'm hungry.

so i got stood up last night. i was slightly intoxicated so i didn't really mind. but looking back on it, i think it's rude.

this boy at work has a crush on me. i don't know how to feel about it.

winnie cooper is so overdramatic.

bean is here. i like it.

i'm getting a tattoo in june. foot or wrist? hmmmm.

i feel really disconnected from the person i ( Read more... )

bamboozle was amazing. i don't care what any of you say, i honestly have the best friends on the planet.

summer is going to be good to me. i can feel it.

out of 10, my intoxication level is a 6.

bagels and booze got busted tonight. that was the first time ever. i guess it is only fitting considering it was the last one of the year. i expected it to be huge, but it really wasnt. weird.

people are mad at melissa for leaving. however, when the cops are involved and you are an underage drunk, it becomes ( Read more... )

i just recieved the best news of the day.

Manatees are no longer an endangered species! WOOT WOOT!

i knew the money we raised in mr. stoneburner's 7th grade homeroom would pay off.