The last time I went to the spanking party was back in April and I caught a cold from one of my spanking buddies ( Read more... )

was a slow start, but I'm slowly getting more into it, sending pics of my predicament to Sir Ben and a couple other of my fellas ( Read more... )

tomorrow have an undetermined set of things to do ... is T driving, taking train, COVID poz/neg, waiting a day, I have to be able to sleep through this LOL, take one of those anti-anxiety pills [redacted] gave me ( Read more... )

I didn't sleep well, not sure why, perhaps feeling a general pileup of uncertainty about T's COVID, when he's coming home, whether I'll have to evacuate the house and for how long, and what form Jury Duty will take next week. Also, will my car be ready to pick up today, when will I squeeze that in. Which work stuff to prioritize this week before ( Read more... )

I slept poorly last night, various anxieties were getting to me after midnight, so then I overslept this morning, so now I need to take my morning meetings from home and then commute this afternoon if I'm to commute at all. But my 4pm meeting was intended to be in person with Acting Boss, so ... if we aren't rescheduling it for some reason, I do ( Read more... )

I've never seen somebody present their identity in this way before, as "queer + anxious", as though "anxious" is a flavor of queer.  But perhaps I'm behind the times ( Read more... )

Either on top of my anxieties, or underneath my anxieties,

Either my To Do List is manageable, or overwhelming,

Either my relationships (with all people, not just sex partners) are working, or broken,

No, Bug, you don't have to save the world on your day off!  You can do silly things!  Like watching VeepOMG, also found the best new indie pizza & pasta place nearby ... got some of each and both so good, OMG if I worked there I'd be fat ( Read more... )

KWC bailed on dinner tonight, which is OK, I've got other social stuff M, W, and F.  He might reschedule for Tu or Th.  If he were a newbie I'd label him a flake but we go back 32 years, so, he can have a rain check ( Read more... )

I'll have to calm down after this dinner delivery, there's tomorrow to deal with, the rest of the week, you all know this,

not anxious, only performing anxiety,