no KWC
KWC bailed on dinner tonight, which is OK, I've got other social stuff M, W, and F. He might reschedule for Tu or Th. If he were a newbie I'd label him a flake but we go back 32 years, so, he can have a rain check.
But now the only reason to head back to the house is to feed the cats, but I gave them double food yesterday, and refilled water, so they won't die if I fail to return until the afternoon or evening ... ... ...
So I'm playing with toys at the condo this morning and will likely need a nap and will head back later in the day. I expect mad kitties LOL. But more likely they'll be resting in their heated skybeds and will ignore my return.
I had City Lights food delivered last night, and still have leftovers, I'll play for another 90 minutes or so, then eat leftovers, then nap, then clean up condo, then drive home, then -- hot tub time? :-)
Weekend!
Another zero-anxiety Sunday, my third in a row. WTF. Have I fixed it? How? Taking a break from B can't be all of it, because Sunday anxiety has been around for years. I've been working to adjust to T's new long-distance job, and maybe I've finally adjusted. After about seven months.
I think it is proactive socializing. Not waiting until I'm lonely to call people or to invite people. But the causes of the anxiety cycle are deeper. Going back to the triad breakup, and not knowing what sort of mood I would find back at the house after spending time at the condo with K. Also transitioning from leisure time to work time, but work has been slow this month, which ... yeah ... work stress ... post-triad stress ... both combining on Sundays to create a pattern of anxiety on Sundays.
How do I keep work stress low?
But now the only reason to head back to the house is to feed the cats, but I gave them double food yesterday, and refilled water, so they won't die if I fail to return until the afternoon or evening ... ... ...
So I'm playing with toys at the condo this morning and will likely need a nap and will head back later in the day. I expect mad kitties LOL. But more likely they'll be resting in their heated skybeds and will ignore my return.
I had City Lights food delivered last night, and still have leftovers, I'll play for another 90 minutes or so, then eat leftovers, then nap, then clean up condo, then drive home, then -- hot tub time? :-)
Weekend!
Another zero-anxiety Sunday, my third in a row. WTF. Have I fixed it? How? Taking a break from B can't be all of it, because Sunday anxiety has been around for years. I've been working to adjust to T's new long-distance job, and maybe I've finally adjusted. After about seven months.
I think it is proactive socializing. Not waiting until I'm lonely to call people or to invite people. But the causes of the anxiety cycle are deeper. Going back to the triad breakup, and not knowing what sort of mood I would find back at the house after spending time at the condo with K. Also transitioning from leisure time to work time, but work has been slow this month, which ... yeah ... work stress ... post-triad stress ... both combining on Sundays to create a pattern of anxiety on Sundays.
How do I keep work stress low?