I went to Seattle this weekend ( Read more... )

It happened again, in the shower as usual. I've been okay for so long and then out of no where-BAM! I hate my body, why does it have to do this to me? What's the point of them anyways? I woke up dazed, picked myself up, turned the water off and climbed out of the shower. I looked around, taking in my surroundings while attempting to get ( Read more... )

I was pretty much drunk this whole weekend and it felt really great. Especially being around my parents the whole time while I was at it. Not to say I need to be drunk in order to have a good time with my parents...but I do let go quite a bit. My sissy and her icky hubby came down too, along with some family friends who I ADORE. I swam, ate ( Read more... )

I like to write, as a matter of fact I love it. Ever since I went back to being "christian", I cant write because my mind is so FREAKING cluttered with the stupidest shit. <--that's right, I'm gonna swear...I'm not happy. I dont want to be a christian, I dont want to follow God if it means being straight. I enjoy being gay, I like liking girls ( Read more... )

I did it for me...

I cant say I'm ready...

I never have felt ready...

But I made the choice...

I cried...

Something is happening already...

I still want to be...

I still want to...ugh...

But for now I need to start small...

Love to all who need it
Heather

p.s. I'm still gonna go to Seattle

We had a bonfire ( Read more... )

I have a hard desicion to make. My Dad, he's not only my Father, he is my hero, my safe haven and my good friend. There isn't much I wouldn't do to make him happy. My goal in life, well one of my many goals in life, is to make my Father proud. I want him to actually tell me one day "Heather, you've made me so proud. I'm so proud of you." On ( Read more... )

I woke my parents up at 6:45 in the morning again. They just cant seem to get in a nice, sleepy Saturday ever since I've been bored. :) Smoking and drinking nasty-ass coffee with my Ma was fantastic. I love my Ma so much. Then I noticed her bird and squirel feeders were empty and low, so being the model child I am I filled em for her. Of ( Read more... )

See the way I walk ( Read more... )

I'm fucking sick. I went to work for an hour, threw up twice and decided that was enough of that. Went home, called up my folks and told my Ma to come get me. I laid on the couch and spent the night simply for the comfort. I love it when my Ma strokes my head until I fall asleep, the smell of my parents smoking unrelentlessly and the fresh ( Read more... )