*BELCH!* Yeah that was ME!

[kaikaia]

I was pretty much drunk this whole weekend and it felt really great. Especially being around my parents the whole time while I was at it. Not to say I need to be drunk in order to have a good time with my parents...but I do let go quite a bit. My sissy and her icky hubby came down too, along with some family friends who I ADORE. I swam, ate awesome barbeque, corn on the cob, caesar salad, artisian bread, beans and COLD BEER...mmm-mm-mmm-mm-mmmmmm! Hell yes! Oh yeah, and cigarettes...I cant drink and not smoke. Menthols rock. So I also told my parents I believe I can still be gay and go to heaven. It's what's in your heart and mind. My parents were not happy whatsoever, but I refuse to lie to them or to myself. I refuse to be everything they would like me to be. It felt good to kinda rip out what I honestly believe instead of caving in all the damn time. Plus, one of the family friends and talked forever over like 3 beers while we lounged in the pool and he told me "You have such beautiful eyes. You're right, you're not your sister...but I think you're prettier than she is. You like everything a guy likes-shit, you're every guys dream girl. You're alright Heather, everything is going to just fine with you...I can tell." I so needed to hear that; from someone my parents trust and love. Someone who is a Christian himself, yeah it felt great. The weekend was good, life is good and I talked to my cousin in Seattle who I haven't spoken with in over 4 years...she's so COOL! I love my family. I love you too. Ha ha.
Love to all who need it....I think I just want it... j/k
HEAT