numbness is an illusion of feeling, but when the vibration sweeps from your head to your toes the believability of it is undeniable. walking always with our heads down, hands in our pockets, we're sinking slowly yet quickly unfolding and unfolding and unfolding the things we want so badly to discover. I can't run away from myself, only what I might ( Read more... )

most entries should probably be friends only but I just recently decided that I don't really care. been ignoring it a lot lately but the fact is I still have no idea who I am and what I like, wish i could be more clear but that's about as far as my thoughts go. wish you would all stop letting me down because it's really starting to get to me. don't ( Read more... )

why am i so fucking wishy washy? that's all i want to know...

damnit, brand new resonates so well. without fail, at all the different weird periods of my life brand new has been there and each time they have managed to coincide so horribly well with the way I am feeling and I'm just wondering how the music manages to do so. I hate it also because I know that all of this has gone to Jesse Lacey's head and that ( Read more... )

lately i've been thinking about happiness and satisfaction and i'd have to say i'm somewhere in that realm-noticeably, for once.

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up late again...but I get my new computer in about 10 hours

I've got to write this piece for drama. I mean I'm not going to be scolded if i don't but when I say that it doesn't matter because I've reaally got to. I've got all of these ideas but as the story of my life goes I am never able to put any of them together even though I reallyrealylreally truly want to...i'm beginning to wonder what is wrong with ( Read more... )

if everything is so distinguished then why can't I pick out the fine lines between happiness and short bouts of being happy? how come some people can so easily decide...decide what? I don't even know anymore because all of my thoughts blend together into one big mess and I'm not really sure how to organize them anymore. I have a sad notion that I ( Read more... )

there is nothing up there ( Read more... )