WHY do I always have to subject myself to this pain?

It's my own fault. I live in this diluted fantasy that something could have possibly happened. NOTHING WAS EVER GOING TO HAPPEN! But still, it hurts. Still, its me that always loses out ( Read more... )

the pain of her name stings like a knife.

why can't it be me?

college is great, i love it.
but nothing is going according to plan.

going home this weekend... yay!

first of all... i only write in this when im really down about something and i need to let it out. notice the time stamps on each entry ( Read more... )

i hate feeling this way.

i was just watching the movie we made for economics, and i jsut can't stand the sight of myself. i am just so....oafy. and i am beginning to think that when people call me beautiful, they are really being sarcastic.

its to the point and i want to smash every mirror i see myself in.

don't call me beautiful.

why does nothing ever turn out how i want it to? seriously. NOTHING. NOTHING. they say "when man plans, god laughs." but this is ridiculous. i can't even plan out a day with out it going wrong ( Read more... )

1. Would you give me your number ( Read more... )

Why am I SO stupid to let him get to me like this? He's not my boyfriend, or anything of that sort! We hooked up once! But still, stupid idiotic things make me jealous! I wish I didnt have to feel that ( Read more... )

I've come to realize something. Its almost an epiphany. Actually I had been thinking this for a few years now. It really can shape your life if you let it. Ready for it?

If you don't expect much, you can never be let down. Think about it. If you set high standards, chances are you will probably be let down. If you set your standards low, you will ( Read more... )

Anyone have fun New Years plans they would like to include me in?

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