i'm in full-on creep mode over at http://flewinto.tumblr.com

it has been august. i went tubing down farmington river this weekend. i just found out my dad & mom did that many years ago, which is just as well. i haven't seen my mom since just around my birthday, i think, even though she lives under 3 miles away. i've been watching movies, anticipating the start of school, commuting, and spending too much ( Read more... )

things i have been thinking about recently, late july oh nine edition:

1. "in 1979 i was just learning how to be thirteen. i didn't know i'd have to keep thinking about it until i was twenty-five." - sherman alexie

2. i rediscovered bad scene, everyone's fault, the jawbreaker cd ocean introduced to me to probably in ninth or tenth grade. it hit ( Read more... )

i'm glad i didn't quit that first week i got sent to the new job, coming home inexplicably crying every night without words to explain why. my father saw me frustruated and i didn't want to tell him that i hated this job he's been doing for almost thirty years, that my spirit couldn't handle real hard work and buildings without walls or windows ( Read more... )

i feel terrible. i haven't written anything of real merit, with any finished effort, in all of 2009. since the year is more than half over, that's pretty shitty. i feel pretty shitty. i can make excuses: i was overloaded with the french language and newness in montpellier. this summer, i'm overrun with construction workers and a real-people ( Read more... )

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"but if the other guy comes back to work with you, where will i go ( Read more... )

any vague coolness about the roofer with silver teeth who keeps talking about me is gone, mostly because he saw me this afternoon and was like WHERE YOU WORKING I DIDNT SEE YOU ALL DAY. I CAN'T GET YOU OUT OF MY HEAD. ITS THOSE DIMPLES please stop talking to me and telling me you like my face when i tell you several times i have a boyfriend (a ( Read more... )

for all intents and purposes, this weekend should have been really good. i was seeing friends from school, i was out doing things and going new places or eating delicious barbecue, at least. instead of feeling relaxed, though, i'm the opposite. anxious. not ready to start the week again ( Read more... )

i wish i didn't have the old-lady requirement of needing 7+ hours of sleep a night to keep me from falling asleep on the job and totally hating life the next day. i swear i would have more of a life. all i do right now is go to work and talk about work when i'm not there. because it's interesting...at least, i think it's interesting ( Read more... )