i think this is much bigger than we believe it to be ( Read more... )

it still hurts sometimes, but i am getting by even better than i expected ( Read more... )

i was thinking about how quickly things went.

"my darling, may we go at a glacial pace?"
"of course, hon."

i was thinking about this gazing-into-each-other's-eyes.

"i noticed you never look me in the eye."
"looking you straight in the eye is like staring into the sun."

i was thinking about him in general. there is something about him, and i cannot ( Read more... )

i'm dreaming of chicago.  not the fake chicago i wandered with an old sailor, but the lively, colorful one i'd known prior.  the city that left me breathless, and completely sure i'd found home ( Read more... )

there is so so much ahead of me ( Read more... )

marhaban lj. izzayak ( Read more... )

someone. this someone, straight from the depths of everything. i'm going to love this someone. i'm going to love him with all of me, on no uncertain terms, without holding back, without anything getting in my way ( Read more... )

i like him. maybe a little too much. either wait it out, or leave. but first we have to discuss how to go about our delicate situation.

tomorrow will be fun though. :)

i miss chicagooooo. i want to go home so bad. i missed md. hah, he told me i'll always be his little surgeon.

what the hell is with me. i mean really.

why'd i give up biology for it ( Read more... )

hah i'm at work.

i think things are really over with no hope of getting better.

one thing i've learned: gut feelings are 90% right.

i'm not as bad as i thought i'd be. i'm sad, yes. devastated when i found out. however, i think that now, things are going to start looking up.

i'm going to go back home to chicago. i miss it too much to stay away. i'll ( Read more... )

duality of man appears to be some kind of survival tactic. before there can be peace, you must prepare for the war, blah blah blah.

however, how can it be survival when you're such a good person to everyone but your own family?

he knows so much about theology and will tell you his daughter paints when she prefers pencil and charcoal and doesn't paint ( Read more... )