lawd have mercy please???  just a little bit??? i won't tell anyone if you grant just a little bit ( Read more... )

 i feel this really strong urge to write tonight and i have to do it while i am here at my dad's because my keyboard is on the fritz there at home.  it makes typing rather difficult at times ( Read more... )

so  many ways to say "i love you" but never enough to say just how much....

 you know, i have been slacking in making posts...  but it has been rather hard to try and come up with something decent to say and not just sit here and bitch ... but i am finding this extremely hard to do so i guess we are just gonna have to go with whatever just happens to pop out of my fingers at this rate ( Read more... )

this is the first time i have been out of beed since thursday evening sometime after dinner.  my body hurts from being in bed for so long.  i have been crap-tastic-ally sick.  that and a combination of depression... bleh...  life goes on i suppose.

i have spent 99% of the time i have been here at dad's putting in applications... just like normal.  i ( Read more... )

 Dear Dad,

I think it is about time something was said because this shit is getting ridiculous.  I am sorry I wasn’t the daughter that you wanted in life.  I am sorry that I didn’t live up to your expectations and have always been a disappointment to you.  I am sorry that I was never good enough in your eyes and that I will NEVER be good enough in ( Read more... )

you  know what?  fuck you... fuck all your bullshit.  i am sorry what i do with my life and what i have to offer is not good enough for you... fuck you and your fucked up wife too.  and if i EVER catch that bitch yelling at my mother again i will slit her throat and rot in prison.  FUCK YOU ( Read more... )

 something productive, at least in my little world...  i put up new icons :D 

 Would you like to know something?  I really hate being one of the most emotionally complicated and challenged people on the face of the earth.  Don’t argue the point because you know it is true.  “What brings on this run of shit?”  Well, I just ran outside to take the pizza box from last night out, and apparently the cold front did make it’s way ( Read more... )

  I mentioned in my post last night about the whole holiday thing.  I wasn’t able to finish a lot of thoughts considering there was a short woman sitting rather close to me and I wasn’t exactly thrilled at the idea of an over the shoulder reader type person sitting there and running the risk of her taking offense to anything I may or may not say or ( Read more... )