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well i suppose it has been a while since i have even considered updating but taking into consideration all that has happened since my last post... i think it is ok and i should be forgiven... so i suppose i should get busy explaining myself...

between psycho stalker dumb asses... and getting fired... and moving...  things have been a bit chaotic...

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so here is my thoughts for the new year.  but first i want to start with this past year.

2008 was one hell of a bumpy ride but it seems to have smoothed out at the end.  thank you for standing beside me and not letting me smash my face into the ground.  thank you for understanding my insanity.  thank you for being there whenever i needed you.  thank ( Read more... )

We can dance if we want to…

S…A…F…E…T…Y…. Safety dance!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, I survived the first week of work. And in all reality it really was a week since I worked 7 days straight. It was supposed to be 10 straight but they rearranged the schedule because someone else apparently needed my days off so I got theirs and it worked out to where I had ( Read more... )

so after some careful thinking i have decided to be open about a few things.  i have come to several realizations over the course of my time away from the world.  i have a problem.  and it isn't something that is easily solved.  i have an addiction...  not alcohol, not drugs... but love...  i have had several failed relationships and i realize why ( Read more... )

let me just do some people a favor and state that it is alright if you don't want to have anything to do with me.... i don't give a fuck anymore.  just stop with the bullshit and mind games and the blowing me off.   i guess that is all i can say on the matter.  fuck you right back... i just don't fucking care.  i have enough going on in my world ( Read more... )

are just disturbing no matter how funny or interesting they might seem at the moment.  mom and i are coming over to dad's tonight and we pass this funeral home that has been put up for sale.  no biggie right?  well, that is no biggie up until some morbid mental case like myself gets ahold of things.  i made a comment about how mom and i should buy ( Read more... )

stab the fuckers in the face and don't answer the phone in the morning.  so i went to lexington last week.  did the stupid interview...  answered the damn questions... was really nice about it... brought all the stuff they wanted me to bring... copies of this... prints of that... left arm here... mother's left leg there... the small rain forest of ( Read more... )

things are getting a little out of control in my world.  i am trying so hard to keep positive that everything is going to be ok... but the longer the waits the more i am losing the strength to hold on to this positive run.  i put in the applications, i take the tests, but i can't bug them like i would a regular job because you can't call them and ( Read more... )

so five adults and two vehicles later, i am finally moved and at home.  i wasn't planning on this for a month but well... when you have a fucking note that says i want you out, there isn't much of a choice.  everything is upstairs thanks to chris and i but it didn't take long to load and unload.  that was really great.  it took longer to drive up ( Read more... )