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[jenngurl]

so after some careful thinking i have decided to be open about a few things.  i have come to several realizations over the course of my time away from the world.  i have a problem.  and it isn't something that is easily solved.  i have an addiction...  not alcohol, not drugs... but love...  i have had several failed relationships and i realize why a lot of them failed.  i also have begun looking back on the way that a lot of things have gone in certain relationships...  i am addicted to love.... i am addicted to the feeling of being in love... i am addicted to being in love... i cling to someone very early on... i do really stupid things like put them before anything in my life (work, school, life, etc.) ... it is all very unhealthy and it has taken me a long time to realize this.  the fact that i have been single for virtually 2 years now is helping some.  i miss relationships, but i need to focus on other things right now before considering something that crazy right now.  job, car, apartment.... you know... the basics of life... i need to know what it is like to be by myself...

on other notes... romantic movies are stupid... do you really expect me to believe that you can meet someone and fall madly in love with them in just a week and have everything work out perfectly in the end???  ...  that just toys with my head and screws with my healing process of attempting to get over some of this love addiction... *sigh*  no win i tell ya... no win